ok i realized something this morning. one of my biggest fears has always been like people making fun of me behind my back. im always a "i won't allow people to think I'm stupid" person I'd rather intimidate people than be friendly by just acting a little foolish. it shouldn't be such a big deal. anyways.

i realized that that's a direct effect of my parents not correcting me when i was a kid. when i mispronounce words or say something wrong they didn't correct me they just made fun of me. those are such clear memories in my head i don't know why i didn't realize sooner that they had such an effect on me