hi my mom just called to tell me that one of my younger cousin, who i haven't been in touch with in years but still think of as being fucking five, died today of a heroin overdose. his mother found him. Mom's gonna let me know about the funeral

his older sister, was one of my best friends growing up. i remember him being a pain in the ass like any young sibling. i have a scar on my hand from the time i was 11 and pounded on a brittle piece of glass in a door bc he was making me mad

he grew up into a good dude. i knew nothing about his drug problems and i'm kind of blindsided here

Mom asked: "When is this going to stop?" All I could say was, "I don't know,"

FUCK

oh hell. I'm sorry, hun

if i could afford to stay home tomorrow, i fucking would, but i can't both do that and attend his funeral (whenever it is) so

i mean also idk if our coworker who's been out sick all week will be back tomorrow and if not i couldn't leave the third team member all by herself AND FUCK

fuck, I'm so sorry

<3 thanks

I'm so sorry

so anyway i went to work and had a massive sobbing breakdown approximately thirty seconds after i clocked in. i tried to stay once i'd calmed down, but my coworkers pretty much pushed me out the door so. that's how that went

hugs

/hugs/ thank you

if you need to talk, i'm here

via plurk or discord or text

/loves on bunches :<

same, man. I'm glad they sent you home

yeah me too

i was basically voted off the island, it was kind of hilarious. also they were definitely right