[Apollo] more navelgazing, but it's positive this time

as easy as it is to get trapped in our brain and start doubting myself it's still totally impossible to deny one thing

hearing my own name or even seeing someone type it out just gives me the biggest glowing feeling. something clicking into place just right, like a muscle knot you didn't know was there finally relaxing

seeing everyone use "Apollo" and finally having my own signifier most of the time with this serpico icon is such a relief, too, and I know artemis always feels vaguely embarrassed, like she accidentally opened my door instead of hers, when she uses all my stuff

plurk having easy icon switching and the discord thing that Quinn showed me have legit been godsends

as much as i bellyached yesterday about having nowhere so far where people weren't introduced to me as artemis's +1, it's also really satisfying for people to know that and still think of me as me

since that's part of my identity too

damn.

sometimes i feel fucking weird about constantly plurking about this stuff but getting my thoughts in front of other people is important to me i think