ð Rui ð
[cw: cancer, pet] one for me too as I get my thoughts out
ð Rui ð
I'm glad we decided to go through with the biopsy. obviously it only postponed things, but I genuinely think he's had some of his best days since then, going in car rides with us
ð Rui ð
And despite what a trooper he is I have a feeling I know what the right answer is
ð Rui ð
I got a petsie of Rio. I'm thinking of getting one for him too
ð Rui ð
I just .... god. it's gonna be so hard without a cat. part of me feels that we should have one for the mental health benefits
ð Rui ð
I guess I'm also just .. scared for some reason?
ð Rui ð
heh, I don't even fully know why...
ð Rui ð
I guess... sometimes it's been difficult, taking care of those two, and I partially feel responsible for their going downhill
ð Rui ð
I haven't always given medicine on time. I stopped giving some meds. I hate it
ð Rui ð
I've .. put off appointments. and I feel so damn guilty over it
ð Rui ð
anyway I'll be kinda sparse
Jay
you've done the best you can while trying to take care of yourself too, and that's all you can ask of yourself, and all he'd ever ask of you. Be gentle with yourself
ð Rui ð
;; ty
on hiatus
I don't know how you kept up with even half of what you did, on top of my staying sick and fairly useless in the physical capabilities department
ð Rui ð
curls around
ð Rui ð
ty hon. i just want to make sure everyone is taken care of, sob
on hiatus
Good. Because you are part of everyone
ð Rui ð
;; 
EternalLie
ð Rui ð
Airdra
It's hard, y'all take care of yourselves 
ð Rui ð
tysm
ð Rui ð
saw zippy's harness, started bawling
ð Rui ð
just thinking about how he became so excited about going outside...
ð Rui ð
he's the reason i went out half as much as i did...
ð Rui ð
literally sometimes just. went up to the front door, looking up at it to indicate he wanted to go outside
on hiatus
Yeah, his little excited noises
ð Rui ð
yeah