[venting/imposter syndrome] Every time I open up my dissertation to work on it Iegit want to start crying and delete the whole thing

please do not.

I'm not going to probably I'm just at the "I hate everything" stage of things'

that's fair. Every academic does. We have to develop a complicated relationship with our writing before we release it into the wild or it'll never survive on its own >.>

yeah it's hella stressful and it can be hard to disentangle "there are problems with what I have written" dysphoria from "I'm climbing the walls because of a positive feedback stress network" dysphoria

And considering that the little constructive feedback I've received is "I can't find your thesis" and "it's too short" I don't really... know... what to do with myself?

I fixed the first problem

So I guess write more?

which is not a DIRECTION

...that's not great feedback nope

like I get that there's an early phase of writing where you've just started and you haven't written down all the things you've got in mind to write down and fill out the structure... ...but even then someone can give feedback on the structure and approach and ideas in general

Oh I'm like a year into writing this

My ideas are there, for sure

But like, after 80 pages of writing, the only feedback you can give is "Needs to be longer"???

..........yeah no that's....... just not serious feedback

which ain't great if it's coming from an advisor

that's a bingo

I don't envy you, dealing with a negligent advisor is an extra helping of stress nobody needs