[mute, fandom while Black, Cosplay while Black]

You ever just want the ability to do something instead of being worried afterwards you’re doing it wrong?

Like I was a serious kid and sex repulsed as a teenager

And now I’m grown and like goofy, sexy things

But hyper sexualización of black folks is A THING and I’m just...

I want to have fun in peace

I love Garuda’s designs in FF14 and 16, I kind of want to cosplay here

But then I flinch, bc Black femme running around as The Sexy One

Like it fucking sucks to constantly have to question this. Do this and you get needlessly sexualized, don't do this and you are held up as this pure, serious prude figure. Black people don't get the right of ever being more than one or two things at once.

and it's genuinely vexing.

Like MY friends know of my multitudes. But sometimes I just want to turn my brain off and just have fun

i dont really know what to say but i want you to know i see you and i wish for a better climate for you with all the swiftness in the cosmos