Wondering whether I can fit in this industry, this type of work, or my job actually. Am I not putting enough efforts in memorizing the characteristics of the products? Do I really enjoy my work or even feel happy when I accomplish a task?

I doubt myself. I doubt my ability in doing this job. Should I leave the work because of my inability or I just want a fresh start to where no one knows me. To escape this familiar but burdensome place. Maybe I am just jealous seeing other having their dreams fulfilled.

My thoughts and feelings scramble into too many pieces. To the extend that myself is lost in searching the answers my heart desires. I want to leave and I know the way. It is hard for me but I am trying, I am doing it bit by bit, day by day. I wish they accumulate to what eventually become a route and guide me the way out.