Finally, tentatively getting interested in things again! Trying to keep absolutely positive about what i want from this game, but also be communicative.
I'm already excited for this month like so much because ryou's going to be a werewolf again and absolutely objectively, it has been his best monster to be!
buddy's gonna be working on things that spark joy for him, including and yes were can do this because i said so, getting a side-buzz! I want to put out feelers to see who would be interested in buzzing half his head so he can be a new man
in case it's noticeable, i've been disengaging from nattering too much on my thoughts wrt game, pace, w/e, because my mental health needs a breather. i support everyone in how they have to take part in the game but I also need to have fun how i want to have fun
to be completely open to anyone here, i am working on possibly hashing out a player plot, and if it is a thing, then it will absolutely affect other characters, but until it's more than a theory i don't want to talk about it much.
also a blanket statement that personally, i have no interest in making ryou a fog fundie. his allegiance is purely for his own personal reasons with a bit of psychological manipulation thrown in!
Because Ryou is easy to manipulate through supernatural means, like with Dyster and shit, but he can tell when someone's trying to meddle with his choices and Elias did him a massive frighten.
My job is absolutely thrashing me, we have like no coverage, my boss is recovering from arm surgery, even the opener who is patently a giant d-bag is like "hey this is fucked up for you too" and that's crazy because normally he's very involved in how he feels and not everyone else.
I put in for my july vacation so I can do convention though, which I'm hoping is better than last year because like. there were no panels. and that's fine, i still want to continue my patronage to support a con i've been going to for years, but like. i want it to be better this year
It's may so I think i'm p much locked into Ryou again as cosplay, which is also very much fine! He's a comfortable outfit to wear, so I don't think I'll bother with MTT this year
And! I've been working on my art skills, so i can make supplemenetal income via art! i hope that i can continue to improve, it's definitely nice to feel like there is some improvement.
so yeah since irl is trash i am very unfortunately forced to curate my life online, which i am afraid makes me look less sympathetic to those around me. I promise this is not true, I care about all of you! but in order to not spiral into depression, i need to make sure I don't interact with certain things!
And further, i really do appreciate who's stuck around through the Great Tag Drought because hoooooh, I am trying and I am not succeeding lately, except to cherrypick here and there. It is, I assure you, VERY not personal!
woke: Fog is Mom