[meme] ama about rp & writing?! characters past and present, headcanons, honestly fic too if you like lol

i have the questionable distinction of being over a third of the ao3 tag for the silver case lmaooo ive been doing a lot more fic than rp these last few years

i know you've played travis for 9 million years but what made you ultimately start rping him?

this is a hilarious answer for a character ive gotten to do so much fun development with, but

im gonna be real. i was 16 and he was edgy and violent and said bad words

i dont think i really took him seriously until like, nmh2? getting to see him feel bad and hearing that infamous "travis is canonically a lapsed catholic" factoid lol got me like WOAH SHIT what IS this guy's inner life, so i revisited nmh1 with my less stupid older teen/early 20s brain like, man. man! this guy is fucked up!

what a ride for a character i picked up before ljrp on a whim HAHAHA. i havent been playing him consistently since then but it's def been on and off since nmh1 has been out. hes my forever boy, i love him

all i can think of is that shitpost with the english teacher deeply analysing shit and then it turns out the author just likes the color blue

LMFAOOO

jokes on me i thought the curtain was blue but it symbolized the existential void of capitalism and toxic masculinity

turns out it was that deep!

in a very interesting turn of events loving nmh as a teen even like influenced the kinds of narratives i wound up liking, i'm so invested in like tragic revenge narratives / characters who have weird relationships with their presentations of gender

i shuffle my 50-page thesis on no more heroes and performative femininity/masculinity