[work] it's our spring break!! which couldn't have come at a better time cause I want to reflect on some things

since today while I was subbing one of the kids threw a piece of candy at me when my back was turned trying to work the smart board then when I got mad about it it was "it's just candy" and background comments of me being fat so tbh i'm kind of wondering if I even want to be in a classroom right now

i still want to do something with education and english and I know that's possible outside of the classroom

like i know i shouldn't let it get to me but with my track record of having one year with a preschool student who wouldn't leave my chest alone and now a middle school student throwing candy at me I'm getting tired

not to mention the crap of trying to teach during a pandemic then the school politics of not helping the administration cause they're the enemy to another old woman trying to be in high school again i'm pretty exhausted even if i like my new school and job i'd be more comfortable answering emails at this point

idk just wondering about the future after i finish school

Tbh I don’t know how educators are standing this environment at all, y'all are doing so much

it hasn't been easy and now that it's going to get hotter here in MI we already know it's gonna be even more especially since cyberbullying has been growing so it's like rubs temples

we're all feeling it at this point now it's just becoming count down until summer break since we don't get break up here until June 28 my superintendent is so concerned about numbers that he thinks if we're in school longer it will make more students go to school

like the comments don't bother me when you've been bullied since a kid through a teenager up to an adult you've heard a lot of things so I let them know that I have been there and done that it's just throwing something at me that has me going "nope don't like that"

I'm gonna be going back to therapy for that since I'm slowly sliding back to "no people means no comments so if I don't go out then I don't have to deal with people" but still