Am I a weird loner

すごーい！

Sometimes late at night I am really tired of myself

It's like, I am in a number of different groups of society, but a true member of none

Always feel myself only as a outsider, never part of the group

It's weird when you feels even more lonely when you are playing with others, that just isn't right

Feels like you are trying to isolate yourself from the group, try to keep a distance between yourself and the societies

維斯坦茲 : It's not like that, I really want to try to join the group (not only this group), just... Always feel lack of confidence when trying to do anything

Sure I enjoy every moment when playing with you guys and other groups as well (when there is no "Drama" happening, that's not fun), I really love having fun with others

It's just

A suddenly feeling of loneliness comes from time to time when thing turns calm

It's like

Whenever I think I want to do something, I feels myself like interrupting, that's a feeling I don't want

No I am not trying to isolate myself from the group, if that is the case why would I stay at the first place

Just, have a feeling like I am always only a guy holding a camera, not the guy who is within the group

That's not a place I want to be in, but the position I always end with

And sometimes later, it is found people around you moved on, leaving you behind

You trying to keep contact, mantain the relationship, but everytime you open the chat, there is nothing you can bring up, the only thing you can do is drop a random "hi"

I feel... not need

not anymore

No you didn't. When everyone is gathering together and you usually don't show up or even left with a word. And you don't try to catch up with others afterwards. Also I think you always want to hide yourself as I observed. Thats why you feel lonely.