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I am officially not allergic to peanuts.

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I am so fucking allergic to the house that even giving robbie a bath before I touched him after they went wasn't 100% enough though....
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I....
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fffffgh
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>:
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/puts you in a fucking bubble!
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you're not allowed to die >:<
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Don't know what to do.

My congress rep literally scolded my landlord so that's something and they're supposedly air filtering it and
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I'm just so damn terrified that... like broader context
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I already have a fuckton of troubles with hotels because allergies. My fucking cotton allergy has gotten worse
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I can't ever let my left lung get infected. Not a single fucking cold. And cool, yanno, I can wear a mask forever, I was planning on it BEFORE CORONA
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But .... will it ever be enough?
𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔟𝔬𝔴 𝔭𝔦𝔯𝔞𝔠𝑦~
cc ur body TT
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do you have a k95 mask?
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They know there's a specific protein that flips the switch between regular immune system response vs. Long-covid
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They know the genetic link that literally causes the probiotic difference in long covid / cfids/me sooooo
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Maybe? MAYBE they'll get closer to a cure this year????
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And yeah like financially, it's generally less good to give a cure than a treatment buuuut
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(LOL) nor with this fucking disaster illness. Like. You have $0 and super negative money because it's a trial not to be unconscious all the time
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*not
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Ara ara
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I'm tired. So much I want to do.
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I miss school street.

Mt grandparents house has always been here for me at the worst parts of my parents lives lololol
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When my dad got water on his knee and had to get surgery, when they both got mono I even went to school for a couple months here. When my mom was suicidal. When my dad first got sick
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I qant to put a koi pond in the flat area they used to have a pool lol. So impractical.
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Ugh it still is just....
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huuuuuugs
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Whatever. Obviously if I could wish anything, why school street at all????
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I'm also scared because it's so hard balancing exercise. How much is safe to test. I don't want to collapse. Be paralyzed. But if I don't push it by baby steps, I'll study even further backwards.
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*slide
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My body is a prison. I must make the best of it, the best prison I can have, but the rules are not written down, and even trial and error is not always accurate.
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Vincent Gogh : I do have the masks. But I literally can't be at school street house right now and even after mom and robbie go, the rash comes back and as with the semen allergy, it snowballs.
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At first the allergen will be mild, but it builds up until fever pitch. So like cotton. I've never been perfect with it but
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Until cottonseed oil was choking me, it wasn't TOO BAD, I just had issues with sheets or 100% cotton clothes etc.
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But now I get yo be stupidly careful etc.
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Apples I used to eat every day, but the got stomach cramps, now even a DROP of juice will make me hallucinate
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So my arm and feet had a few itchy bumps, but the night we left was the worst and it took me days to detox // going back there myself, my arm got fiercely bad again, Mt elbow turned fucking purple, my knee was bad
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Moosey and robbie going back once-- I broke out ONLY from holding robbie . So that was... a big big sign and I had mom wash him etc. So the next time she and robbie went back
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She gave him a bath before I could even touch him... and I still broke our some
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Today was the true test as I ate peanuts
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No rash
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Soooooooooooo
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Otoh yay I'm not allergic to peanuts
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Otoh I'm getting more allergic to that shit at school street with each reintroduction which is how it fucking goes.
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Bright side my allergist is also a specialist in cystic fibrosis so he Saud I can take Allegra daily and I'll only be happier so fuck it I'm back on that.
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*said
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Also I want to lose like 50 pounds but otoh yolo. And usually my lugs were worse when I was underweight soooooo nah.
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Although I had been like "at least no peanutbutter means I'm not gonna be as fat :V" whatever fat > puking
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But. I am just. That figures. I kind of am not sure that being allergic to peanuts wouldn't be better than literally allergic to my house????????????????????????????
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Also limoncello cheesecake is now my favorite food ever. Everrrrr
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And maybe I'll be allergic to that someday but at least I git to enjoy it until then. Like apples.
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I want to go the library here.

I have spent at least 100vhours at this towns library and read all their Manga and when I was younger it was where I used to get all my Shakespeare and my grandma was like "really?" Lol
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I miss my grandparents ahhhhhhhhhh
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They're still in Florida
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And my godparents got covid from truckers at a farming business convention
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Which is just. Yeah.
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But my aunt passed by while Kyle and I were on our Valentines date so I missed them ffff
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I want to go back to the bookstore too. Kyle got like a dozen things
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"Read what you have cc"
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I also want to go to stamp club with my grandpa but I wonder if I will ever get to do these things ever again ever
Whatson
There's always next year, Professor
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