Zilla Fieri
Hi plurk. I exist, I promise. Haven't been doing much of that on plurk, admittedly, so I feel it's appropriate to give a life update. Mute as necessary.
Zilla Fieri
I don't remember exactly when I stopped being active, but I know I wasn't in a good place at the time. The past two years have been incredibly bad for my mental health. Didn't help when Unemployment was gonna start demanding job search proof, so I had to stop that
Zilla Fieri
But I did start seeing a therapist a few months ago through Talkspace. Put some of that money to good use and my doctor's really helped me get out of that funk
Zilla Fieri
Helped me realize part of what I'm dealing with is outright PTSD, helped me build up some confidence and figure out what I want to do with myself
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Man PTSD sucks
taffy
riki omigosh i missed you so much
103 FOOLS
I'm not surprised tbh given everything you've said about your family life.
103 FOOLS
good to see you again Riki. I'm so glad to hear you're in therapy and it's helping
Dollie's Foxie🦊
I missed you so much, I was worried too ;;;
Zilla Fieri
Even some promising directions to go for a career. On a complete whim, I applied to be a voice actor for twitch streamer Ivycomb's project and I got chosen! Haven't done any work yet, but the project has a direction and honestly, even just auditioning got me really excited, so I think that's something I want to look into
taffy
whaa! that's great!
Zilla Fieri
And recently, I was taken on to be a paid DM to demo a friend's adventure path, which is also something I'm really excited about and could possibly look into, if this goes well
Dollie's Foxie🦊
YAYYYY
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
OMG Riki!!!!
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Congrats!!!!
Zilla Fieri
That said, this year is off to a rough start. Water damage from a burst pipe a few floors above us fucked with the walls and the floors, so not only will construction need to be done, but because mom and sis regularly work from home, we'll need to vacate the apartment for some time
Zilla Fieri
Up to two months, is all they told us. And they still haven't given us a date for when that's starting
taffy
oof :-(
Dollie's Foxie🦊
Zilla Fieri
This...has been an indomitable source of stress. Not only do I not like the thought of staying at some bed and breakfast away from home for indeterminate amounts of time, in even closer quarters to a mother I can't stand being around (though I've acknowledged her own stress and dialed down the anger for ehr sake)
Zilla Fieri
But since bringing my own computer is an increasingly bad idea, this means I can't really start either job until I get dates, times and know when I can start. Dates and times that they almost refuse to tell us
Zilla Fieri
To say this alone is upsetting and plays into my fear of futility puts it mildly
♥Day by Day♥
Zilla Fieri
But if nothing else, I have started exercising again. I bought an under desk elliptical and am going to get back into the habit of using one. Because last time I did, I genuinely enjoyed it
Zilla Fieri
That and I have plans to keep myself busy if and when we go. Bring a few notebooks to take up writing again or even start drawing like I've wanted to for years. Considering a tablet for that, but that's its own topic
Zilla Fieri
So yeah, that's where I'm at currently. It's a roller coaster of shit and it might be going down after things were climbing up, but I'm hanging in there as much as I can
Zilla Fieri
Thanks for being patient with me and hearing me out, everyone. I can be difficult to deal with for one reason or another and while I can't communicate my emotions as well as I'd like, it means a lot that you're willing to hear me out
taffy
i have honestly no idea if you remember me cause i've been away for years and changed names a couple times, but i've been thinking of you sometimes since coming back to RP and hope you're doing alright
Zilla Fieri
taffy : that all said, holy fuck, Mel, it's been a while. Glad to see you've been keeping yourself busy, too
Zilla Fieri
I still owe you a few movie discussions
taffy
HELLO YES MOVIES HMM WHA
penis bacon
I got nothing to say that I haven't said on discord but, well

i'm glad the cheat is not dead
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
RIKI
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
WE SHOULD POWERWASH SIM AT SOME POINT
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
I've seen you playing it
Dollie's Foxie🦊
Am just glad you're alright, you're very important and a good friend. I jope things get better for you
Dollie's Foxie🦊
*hope
Snugglewolf
/lovingly gnaws on his favorite chewtoy
Zilla Fieri
103 FOOLS : Family was only part of the trauma, but it was still a big part of it. It honestly came as a relief to know that I'm dealing with is some honest to god trauma
Zilla Fieri
Puts a name on it, helps me know what I'm dealing with
Zilla Fieri
Still waiting on any actual confirmation on ADHD or anything like that, but at least that part I know how to deal with. Trauma, less so, but it's a work in progress
Zilla Fieri
Dollie's Foxie🦊 : sorry for worrying you, ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffFOXIE
Zilla Fieri
I do wanna try being a little more active, but felt this post was needed and overdue
Dollie's Foxie🦊
uwaaaaaaaah, I miss our time together rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRIKI
Zilla Fieri
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ : Amazingly, co-op in Powerwash Sim seems far less terrifying than co-op in Viscera Cleanup Detail
Airdra
HEY if you need to vent about dealing with copious amounts of water damage and being stuck in close quarters with family I am here, friend
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
I'm willing to play later if you want
Zilla Fieri
Probably because you can't make the maps dirtier in this game by accident or on purpose
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
I have Colo right now
Zilla Fieri
Sounds like fun! Need to figure out a good time since I wanna watch a show with a friend and still need to exercise for the day
penis bacon
I know free play allows up to 6 people, so we could absolutely do some shenanigans with the three of us on PWS, if we arranged a time or talked it out
Zilla Fieri
Would've done so earlier, but sis having a long soak after work put that on hold. I'd rather not sit in my own sweat for what could be hours, but sounds like she's getting out soon
Zilla Fieri
penis bacon : abso fucking lutely
𝕿𝖆𝖈𝖔𝖛𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖆
I'm glad you're alive
♥Day by Day♥
I’m glad to hear you’re doing better! I know we don’t talk so much, but I missed you!
Zilla Fieri
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
I'm up most of the night
𝕿𝖆𝖈𝖔𝖛𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖆
Zilla Fieri
I missed hanging out on plurk, so I do wanna post some more often, at least
𝕿𝖆𝖈𝖔𝖛𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖆
:3
Snugglewolf
does this mean I should nab PWS?
Snugglewolf
not necessarily to join in on what you guys are doing, but for coop in general
103 FOOLS
PWS can get weirdly meticulous sometimes, but it's also really zen and satisfying when things get nice and clean
103 FOOLS
the Ping of Completion generates ALL the endorphins
𝕿𝖆𝖈𝖔𝖛𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖆
I enjoy PWS
𝕿𝖆𝖈𝖔𝖛𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖆
It is very Zen.
𝕿𝖆𝖈𝖔𝖛𝖆𝖓𝖎𝖆
I use the donut skin on my washer. >_>
Zilla Fieri
PWS is a very chill game. Tho there are moments of aggressively hunting down tiny stains across a hefty map, the completion of a map can be worth the effort
Snugglewolf
so you're saying I should buy it and force riki to play with me
103 FOOLS
yes
103 FOOLS
hell I'd probably play with you guys too, if I ever get a moment of free time when we're all around XD
Snugglewolf
XD
103 FOOLS
you guys can do the top of the ferris wheel for me so I don't have another ifestiophobia attack
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
I am fine doing high places
103 FOOLS
it's not high places that are a problem, it's the fact that you get a picture perfect view of the smoking volcano in the background >>
Zilla Fieri
It's fiiiiiine
Zilla Fieri
The volcano is just where the mayor's cat is, demanding living sacrifices before even thinking about going home
Snugglewolf
how much is PWS right now?
Zilla Fieri
Lemme check
103 FOOLS
Riki don't even DX
Snugglewolf
...wait, isn't one of the sales about to start, lunar new year sale or summat
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
About $19.99 but they regularly add entire levels
Zilla Fieri
Twenty bucks
Zilla Fieri
and that's before any sales
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
They do a... Weekly I think?
103 FOOLS
I actually had a panic attack my first time doing the ferris wheel cause I wasn't expecting that unavoidable a view
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Stream?
Zilla Fieri
It's still in early access, but the devs are on point with their updates and listening to the community
Snugglewolf
Snugglewolf
said lunar new year sale is literally starting tomorrow
Zilla Fieri
Oh hell yeah, can definitely see if it goes on sale
Friendpatine
I'm really glad to hear you're doing better, man. I know you've still got stresses, but it's good to know you're hanging in there.
Snugglewolf
so Imma go wishlist PWS yes
Friendpatine
Good for you, Riki.
103 FOOLS
anyway my favorite levels are still the treehouse and the playground
103 FOOLS
stegoslide is shaped like a friend
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Skatepark
103 FOOLS
Skatepark's a good one too
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Playground is close second
Snugglewolf
"A town full of dirty secrets" trailer...you did that on purpose...
penis bacon
playground and skatepark are universally the most "yeah those feel good"
Snugglewolf
but yeah, even if it doesn't go on sale, $20 is a good price for the game, and how the hell are they still claiming this is early access, how much more are they planning to add
penis bacon
treehouse depends entirely on your tolerance for scrubbing the underside of the top tier
penis bacon
they're close to 1.0, afaik, maybe a handful more big updates/stages
Snugglewolf
things like this is why it sounds like this game will be lots of fun in coop
103 FOOLS
yeah the underside is annoying, but I looooove the rest of it. the spiral stairs are so fun XD
103 FOOLS
also just generally I Want To Go To There
penis bacon
I've seen co-op streamed
penis bacon
it's great
Zilla Fieri
the treehouse is rude since it comes right before unlocking the tool that would make that level so much easier
103 FOOLS
yeah that was...kinda rude timing on their part XD though I also got those levels out of order since I got it early
penis bacon
nah, I've been replaying from ground zero
103 FOOLS
but at least then you can do freeplay mode and get eeeeeeverything
penis bacon
you literally get forced through treehouse a good two or three stages before you can get the extra long nozzles
MindEvaporator
Oh man Im sorry riko, I didnt know but that’s really awesome youre doing va work
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
This is why you get me to do the underside
penis bacon
l-lewd?
Zilla Fieri
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
fkghj
Snugglewolf
it doesn't help that. y'know. PWS is all about firing high pressure streams
Snugglewolf
Dollie's Foxie🦊
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
hgfghdhfg
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
WHY
Snugglewolf
...this is your early warning if you choose to play along with myself, riki, and sword all at once >.>
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Listen I know what I'm signing up for, I'm also trying not to choke because I cough easy and laughing sets it off >>;
Snugglewolf
oh no, no dying
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Did everything right, still got COVID but it was so mild we all thought we had the cold, I just have kept the cough so far. orz
penis bacon
same hat
Zilla Fieri
COVID Is so fucking rude
Snugglewolf
thank fucks it's just the cough
Zilla Fieri
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Same. Also the thirst.
penis bacon
it's okay, you're here with me, wolfie, and riki
penis bacon
the thirst is eternal
Snugglewolf
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
dfgsgfsgdf
Zilla Fieri
penis bacon
Catphones: look I already suggested that you give her routine chassis maintainance
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Ei you don't even own PWS!!!!
Snugglewolf
well, it might be going on sale in 14 hours...
Snugglewolf
so this could be resolved the same way I am resolving it...
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
We won't have the money to get it until the first, alas.
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
But one day!!!!
DʀᴀɢɴHᴏᴍᴇᴏᴘᴀᴛʜʏ
Yes! One day!
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