[RL/Therapy Things] Not bad things, just... Something my therapist noticed as we talked today.

Apparently, my face lit up a ton when we talked about music, my experience with it in high school, and how much I missed playing instruments

It... Makes sense, honestly. I do miss playing. I miss performing. It was fun, and it was because of music that I never really developed stage fright

if I could get back into practice and there was a chance, I'd likely audition for Western Winds or something. I would only care if it paid the bills and maybe something to set aside for retirement, but god if I don't miss playing in an ensemble

ohhh

I want to hear you play :3

well, the alto sax I own needs some TLC before I get that far

One of my best memories in playing in High School though was our last performance of my senior year. It was a track called "Ghost Train". I remember it was hellish figuring out how to do the percussion at the start, making sure all of the instruments meshed well at the right volumes, the critiques we received in NYC for it, and then performance night

holy shit. It started perfect. The performance was perfect. I got chills from the silence after the final note in the absolute knowledge that we nailed it and the audience reaction showed

and Jazz Band was a lot of fun too! Though it wasn't as much fun going "Wait I have to SOLO?!" but come performance time I was always putting my all into it even if I didn't know the particular piece that well and it always showed

in Jazz Band part of the soloing was that I apparently didn't play loud enough during rehearsals like I played a Bari Sax, I was so used to being in the background that suddenly being front and center was a lot. But I managed