my girlfriend is asleep so I'm just going to gush but.... it is so insane to go basically an entire lifetime with most of my relationships feeling wrong in some way, to feeling more loved, respected, and understood than I ever have. god it fucking rules

transition is such a fraught experience - knew it was right for me but I always felt like romantic connection was something I struggled with more than others, or I didn't really know how to navigate it all outside of dyke world

I fell into the habit of thinking I'd be seeing people casually perpetually, a type of thinking that was informed by my own internalizations about what I was and wasn't allowed to want. transsexual guilt, etc.

I really haven't been the same person since I met Lizzie, though. we talk about always wanting a straight t4t relationship and not really knowing how to find it, but we found each other and it feels so good

it's nice being able to talk about adopting someday with someone but also owning a giant synth room. it is also very sexy. she is the hottest woman I've ever met and I just want everyone to know