tags may not happen tonight because of this persistent right side pain

it's not where i'm at the point of curling up into a ball and crying, but it is significantly discomforting enough that it's hard to focus

either way, yeah, i'm gonna... make a doctor appointment

tmw you're more annoyed about pain than anything

why can't my guts be normal, etc

;;

I feel this I was.... idk how to describe it but the neurologist thinks I have mast cell activation syndrome so like I was having an acute allergic reaction inside my body for like years on end, and it eventually hit my stomach and was miserable every day for like... 3.5 years?

I mentioned lemon balm the other day because I had to drink it constantly for a while to not be in agony, until I eventually started taking some supplements that had a similar effects....

oh god that sounds awful

👌

I'm on a med to control my histamine better and the amount of things that has improved is staggering

i'm now scared that my anti-depressants are doing something

literally always possible unfortunately

which is why i'm going to talk to someone about this. ugghh

yeaaah

but let a doctor take a look first

i was thinking about it today how my GP made the comment that SSRIs can do something to kidneys and i was like

great

the one thing that keeps me stable could be doing this

hopefully not

fingers crossed!