nothing like knocking off work near midnight on a friday after a 15-hour workday to sleep in order to work overtime on a saturday to kick my indecisiveness out of my system..........
but, yeah. rl is kicking my butt, friendos. it's the end of the quarter grind plus a bunch of projects ramping up to completion. now, imagine me moving to a big team with a complex process toward the end of the year... yeah. lmao i'm great at multitasking and working under pressure but i need to cut myself some slack for my health.
with that, i'm going to start by dropping from , and i'm sad about my CR but i'm also not being fair just tagging once every 1-2 weeks. i also need to take the pressure of owing tags off me, because i know people can get anxious and worry that it's about them when it's in fact 100% about me... and i of course worry that people think that, so it's a
is good. liz and i designed it to be a lazy place. there's inevitably going to be some modding pains later on but she has my back, and having friends should help too. you guys want the murder house to thrive, right?? while we slack off and i can wander in late with starbucks anytime i have the brain and mood to tag??? hahaha
we have some modwork to do this weekend but the october log is like 90% written up and we have our spreadsheet nearly ready so i'm not worried on that front. it's easier to update a spreadsheet than word a tag these days
on the + front, while i'm not dropping anything i'm also not committing to tagging anything. that might sound weird for those who don't know me but... i'm totally the type to pick something back up a year later, you know? so just, no expectations i guess. i can no longer tag during the weekdays in between work as much as i want to. at best i
can manage 4-5 tags during the workweek. weekend? hit or miss. sometimes i just zone out. there's family time and rest time and workout time. sometimes i'm busy with stuff related to The Thing. i just can't commit to tagging anymore, but i also don't want to quit rp because i love LOVE collaborative writing.
so that's mostly it. also i'm plurking this because my social energy is so low and i find it most efficient to make one big announcement. lmao maybe after tomorrow's overtime work i can chill some and get back individually to those people i have plans with for more definite discussions. but as of tonight, this is where i'm at.
i'm just tired and stressed and i'm worried that i'm burning out and i'm trying to avoid that, oops. also if this sounds more dramatic than it should be, i'm just... also the type of person to worry about not meeting people's expectations. even when it comes to playing with internet barbies. so. yeah.
i hate letting people down, which is why i keep kicking myself over tags even when people tell me it's fine and they can wait, lmao. to those who have been super patient and have, most importantly, not pressured me about rp at all, thank you. i truly appreciate it
Honestly you come first. RP is fun but tags can always wait. Just take care of yourself and do what you can to manage stress and keep yourself from burn out.
all the love for you, m'dear. as always, take care of you first and everything else comes second. even writing, no matter what our brains tell us sometimes, lol.
I hope you're able to rest and try not to stress over RP and things. I'm confident I'm not the only one who sticks around for you not simply whatever muses we might be lazily tossing at each other at any given time, so try to let RP fretting fall to the wayside and focus on those things you absolutely have to.
ShaynaIsHere
i caught up with sleep today! but it's also like... 3pm now. hahaha probably just going to bum for the rest of the day. i hope your weekend's gone great!
Snufkin
thank you, friend! yeah i need to remind myself of that because i sometimes get wayyyy too pressured, hahaha. but you haven't made me feel that which i why i think you're cool
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brains can be horrible sometimes, yeah :c and that's why i'm super grateful to be your friend! like omg i haven't tagged you in forever but i've never felt any pressure with you at all. just lots of fun times. i'll always hold our threads and CR to my heart, bc they're 100% among my favorites. hope things start to look up for you too!
Go and sleep, fren!