i am thankfully doing better stomach wise and not breaking down wise, but im also like worried that ill just be like this and that the creeping thoughts are here 2 stay

maybe if i win this battle i really wont have anything left to fear about death or whatever idk

period also probably messin with me but i want to be a human being again

all my plurks are about this i just want to play ff14 and cry and not overthink

i hope it passes

Creeping thoughts are easier to deal with if you give them a stupid name or pretend they're someone moronic who's always wrong whispering to you!

tbh today i was watching ah rage quit and michael yelled 'WHO DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DEALING WITH, YOU MONKEY FUCK' and i was just

thats what i should use

but i just...hope i can go back to normal or at least hopeful or something. not constantly live in fear