dont mind me im in the middle of having some sort of depressive.....something. it just came on pretty suddenly last night and i can't throw it off

im upset b/c ive been doing so well and now im just like cant stop thinking about these gd intrusive thoughts or whatever the hell they are or feel like i can laugh or have fun with things i did before

i dont know if its the meds that did this b/c like the side effects mostly went away ive been on them for like a week or two now

i might have to put in a hiatus or something for rp b/c i really hate this and i just dont know

didnt take the strattera this morning b/c what if it is that

been coping today by alternating sleeping and crying i guess

sorry if im not all there

I'm sorry Xar

your brain is going to be odd - but take the strattera because you can get withdrawal from taking it for a few days/a week and then off

and you can tell the intrusive thoughts 'shut up greg'

i mean maybe im just...this came out of nowhere and i really hate it. tho the stomach has Started agaiin today

i do at least have a therapist appt later on today but like lol what if im just goin crazy or whatever

im just like: hey im feeling hopeful. my birthday is coming and also im excited for things
brain voice: nothing you do matters you'll die anyway

you aren't going crazy

im just...thats the same sort of shit my brain was going through when i was at my worst previously, and i dont want it to be b/c of the meds or that... i dunno

just cant stop thinking about having exstistential crises even as much as i argue against it and tell it to shut up

/nods