[Tabletop][Medical I Guess] On the one hand I really want to try putting together a Valor game since I'm slowly cobbling together a few ideas that would be perfect for it. On the other I am terrified of running a game because every time I've tried before in the past few years I've failed.

Although that's largely because the system I ran those games in has an expectation of "you will write text updates for each of your players, each of whom has an individual storyline that almost never crosses over with the others, every day preferably multiple times a day, while also keeping track of an evolving metaplot and homebrewing half of the mechanics"

which is. a big ask and i'm aware of that

but it's still given me anxiety despite knowing that it was probably an innate

weakness of the system rather than one of my own

whatever the case i'm not going to think about it seriously until i get my meds adjusted this summer since i just cannot think properly anymore

my depression dose stopped working a while ago and i'm pretty sure i just need adhd meds at this point

so i need to get all that addressed before antyhing else

Definitely take care of your mental health but also

I cannot imagine spending more than a couple hours a week outside of session on running a game

I want to give a good experience and all but that sounds suspiciously like a job

do not take Trails as an example,

yeah Valor is p good about not needing THAT much setup

but wait until you're sure you can handle it