Syr Cadian
So today in "everything is a hot mess and why does my body hate me?" it seems that my hips have osteoarthritis and i've been in massive pain for two weeks.
Syr Cadian
"what can you do-" nothing, everything hurts to do
Syr Cadian
the only position that doesn't hurt is to be in like, a laz-y-boy in reclined position
Syr Cadian
"does this mean you can't get really into your bed?" y e p
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Oh no 
hip pain fucking suuuucks and I'm so sorry
hip pain fucking suuuucks and I'm so sorry
Syr Cadian
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: I miss sleep so much
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I had to take my rescue medication as a sleep aid when I was going through my years? long experience treating my hip
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not fun. not a vacation
Syr Cadian
ha ha ha yeah it was first diagnosed as a hamstring pull and the percoset didn't even touch it. i have muscle relaxers now that does, but it doesn't make me, you know, functional in any way
F E A S T
Oh fuck that's a nasty injury then. They never prescribed me painkillers that intense
F E A S T
Makes perfect sense that you'd need muscle relaxers
Syr Cadian
I still can't really walk, and i need either a new bed/mattress or my bed modified to sleep... really anywhere decent
Syr Cadian
(places i have tried to sleep: the couch, mom's bed, my computer chair, the bench in the shower, allllll failing for various reasons)
F E A S T
that makes sense too. I needed to buy a new mattress when I injured my hip. And then a topper to try and placate the damn thing
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Syr Cadian
well more it's that when i'm lying down i can't really move, because it's the hamstring-feeling part that does the work, and that's the part that hurts like hell. so my current bed size (a full) is a problem now even besides the fact that it's too tall.
Syr Cadian
so I'd need to buy a new twin-sized bed and mattress, which makes me cry not only for monetary reasons, but because this is literally the best mattress i've ever had.
F E A S T
I'm sorry, that's the last thing you need right now
I'm sorry, that's the last thing you need right now
Syr Cadian
OR i cut down the existing bed/modify the bedside table but literally, LITERALLY everyone i've asked for help is busy and can't come by.
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noooo 
Syr Cadian
meanwhile i can't even do a stopgap measure of buying a 18-inch platform because they cost 150-175$ and i STILL don't have my edd payments
Syr Cadian
I just. I'm tired and hurt and i feel like a burden to everyone and i can't even get medical help
Syr Cadian
looking up the treatment for this and it's like "STRETCHES!" and i want to go FUCKING STRETCHES? FOR THIS MUCH PAIN?
Syr Cadian
THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO GET A REFERRAL FOR?
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I'm sorry, I wish I could do anything to help. My injury was in my hip flexor so I can't even offer my own treatment routine
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W HA
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That is not helpful??
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You need physical therapy?? with more help that just...do a stretch?
Syr Cadian
yeah it's weird. the pain points are in the back of the thigh and only there? but the only way i can bear it is if i sit in a position that... slowly numbs the pain (and feeling in my foot, which is not good, but fuck it)
Syr Cadian
i mean yeah the er doctor said "talk to your primary, get pt"
Syr Cadian
and supposedly a message was sent to my primary, but fuck if i've heard back from her
Syr Cadian
i just want a doctor that i can get in fucking touch with
F E A S T
ugh, sounds like you'll have to call them yourself. Rude
ugh, sounds like you'll have to call them yourself. Rude
F E A S T
like what is our medical system even good for
Syr Cadian
that's the thing. I made all the calls i can. i have to wait for my primary to get back to me so i can even get the referral
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fucking hell
Syr Cadian
RIGHT?
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I hate it and I hate our healthcare
Syr Cadian
Like i just want to lie down and be able to move in my bed without pain. right now i have to tuck my leg under me, scramble onto the preferred lying-down surface, then carefully guess where my butt should be in regards to where my head needs to be, because i can't shift once i fully lie down.
Syr Cadian
do i get it wrong? EVERY TIME
Syr Cadian
so then i have to shift and it's a fucking nightmare
Syr Cadian
and because i'm on blood thinners i can't take ibuprofen
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i just shuddered, aaahh not okay
not okay
Syr Cadian
I'm going to go crazy if i can't get sleep in the next few days
F E A S T
Sending you good sleep vibes
𝖂𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖊𝕱𝖚𝖗𝖇𝖞𝕭𝖆𝖇𝖞❓
oh gosh sweetie
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I'm so sorry...