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i know im barely here but i need to vent
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so for a few years now have had this trouble where sometimes my throat closes up and we can't swallow. usually end up eventually spitting up the food but once had to have it removed
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end of march finally got an endoscopy to look into it (earlier doctors blew us off which made getting around to ti much harder)
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results come back probably eosinophilic esophagitis, which is at least some what allergy related
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so was sent to an allergist and they just did a test
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no fucking explination.
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a few maybe hits on weed/grass/mold (does get worse when sinuses are bad) and possibly allergic to rice and/or peanuts
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my choices? try weeding out foods and maybe come back for another endoscopy/tests in a few months
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WE SPEND ABOUT $1500 FOR THIS FUCKING ANSWER
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i wanted a goddamned answer now a "we're not sure, lets check later" to the tune of about a thousand fucking dollars next time we do the test
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a big chunk of the money we inherited from dad's mum is gone to this and it fixed fucking nothing
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we were already considering trying to pinpoint what foods it might have been so thats not fucking helping
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i just have another goddamned mystery disease that no one knows how to fix or even treat well and godfuckingdamnit i just want to be well and not spend all this money on medical shit
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and of course the only ways we cna think of to cheer ourselves up involve spending more fucking money B|
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we did find out we're not allergic to our cats so thats good
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but im just...so fucking tired of all this
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and work is a pain lately cause too much but no motivation but been taking too much time off so cant really take more off
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not to mention the rest of the fucking country and world u.u there's a back the blue rally this saturday and apparently proud boys are offering security to businesses downtown >B|
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theres a black lives matter rally later in the day on saturday, planning to medic at it. hopefully things will go well.
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its good to get out and do stuff but mostly im just so fucking TIRED and done with everything.
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i just wanna rp and play video games and sleep and maybe medic/volunteer some but i have to work and deal with this shit body
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holy shit apparently insurance decided we didnt have to pay for skin test so suddenly +$500!
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great cause now there is toof pain but at least i can be excited about this for a bit
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