i've been RPing since i was 16 and i can sufficiently say the only insecurity i have now is my speed

and part of me feels a teeny bit guilty in terms of whether or not my character is engaging or not because i'm of the mind nowadays "hey, if it doesn't float your boat, that's cool, i don't care"

and sometimes i do feel guilty because when i look at tags and i'm like

you know what, i want to work on a personal side project for a bit

because i do so many things at once

but right now, my job and my life situation is like the top priority, so

and a lot of my interests, crafts, and hobbies kind of took a nose dive last year because of what happened between my family and i, and to lesser extent, my friend, because i honestly felt no joy doing any of that

but it's slowly getting better and working does help even if my job can be really obnoxious sometimes

if i like

go quiet with tags, it's not anyone, i just need to recoup because my job tires me out a lot

BUT i'm just honestly so grateful people find my OC so enjoyable, as always, because that's been a thing i've been working on for years and it's nice to flush it out and go back and see things i've made

yeah, i'm just not as worried about it as i get older

follow your bliss, live your extra life, etc

i also feel that struggle with a balance between hobbies and the finite resource of time

oh, god, seriously, same

and gwen is from something i do want to write up but i just don't know how to go about it, LOL

and last year's family drama pretty much killed my creative drive for a while