[mental health? regular health?] if I could unlock the secret of why once in a blue moon I wake up with energy, I could be a functioning human being

I woke up today feeling... fine. and I woke up early. and I've been doing things all day.

like chores and shit.

and my brain only feels overcast instead of steeped in a reality-obscuring fog

and I don't know why???

I had shitty sleep and went to bed with a migraine at 1:30 am and woke up about six hours later

WHAT HAPPENED how can I get this to happen again

IF I FELT LIKE THIS EVERY DAY I WOULD BE FINE

I am both ecstatic to be functioning today, anxious about the fact that the timer is ticking on how long it will last, and absolutely infuriated that there are some people (most people?) who just feel like this all the time

the fact that people can sleep and wake up feeling awake and like they have rested at all blows my mind

it isn't until something like this where I'm like holy shit is this what it's supposed to be like

I might even do some tags tonight if I don't burn myself out by then!

(I do have to try again to do my taxes so who knows how many spoons that will eat up)

I'm sorry you know this position