[RL] [mute]

Depression is kicking my ass today.

Idk if it's bad period or what it is but I just want to lay here and cry.

I haven't been paid the last two weeks. Not super unusual to not be paid for two weeks but still kinda just pisses me off.

I don't do this for free. It is a favor and its below market rate.

I just hurt and I'm angry and I don't do the ... hey fucker pay me or I'm not coming back very well.

My mom's coming to take family pictures today to send my aunt and I just do not feel it today.

I started cleaning my house in prep for her to get here and just gave up.

It helped for a little while she was here but IDK

I feel really alone and isolated and I miss hugs

I also feel like I'm not great at this RP thing and I should play someone else but I also don't want to put the effort in so I'll just feel like garbage for not doing it

I dont feel like this all the time I'm just so mentally exhausted and I want H/c but it probably would be miserable

Also ... I sometimes dogsit which means going over there 3 times a day or so to let them run outside and make sure they are fed twice a day.

set my alarm

went over there at 7 am

apparently I'm not

so ... whatever