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[meme] Ship questions! especially for the telenovela polycule in VR
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ooooh, good question. I will consider it on Dimitri's end as I walk the dogs (because before dog walks is the perfect time to post memes)
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15. Who brought what in the other’s life? (Did Person A bring Person B the light they yearned for? Did Person B give Person A the family they always crave? Etc.)
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and then a dog escaped so i had to run off :'D
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zack completely made me forget this ANYWAY CONTINUING
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Grant - once again, I would like to remind everyone that Dimitri met Grant while he was in the midst of a mental breakdown, right outta a war, and started to become convinced that VR was the afterlife
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this is an important thing to note because, uh, grant is just.... nothing to do with that
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like, don't get me wrong - Dimitri loves every single one of his boyfriends, dearly. But he'll always be able to look at them and be able to connect war to them, because, well, it couldn't be helped
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(especially in terms of being terrified that he'd lose them to war)
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but Grant was so divorced from that from the very start
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partially because /gestures at the utter peacefulness of Johto
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but also because of Grant himself? because Grant isn't someone who was dragged from the midst of a war, so he doesn't act like it. He's just.... a nice Soft guy who was busy dading at his child
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and even when Dimitri was trying to explain his theory of how they're all Super Dead Actually to him, Grant didn't argue with him or anything. He still just patiently convinced Dimitri into sleeping, and then helped him do more of that
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What Grant gave Dimitri was... warmth, I guess? Dimitri is going to be a warm mushy mess with all of his boyfriends (when he's not arguing with Felix over veggies anyway), but with Grant, it's just very.... It just happens.
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like sinking into warm blankets and being comfortable
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dimitri is from a very war heavy/centric country and listen it's just very tiring
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he just want. soft. cuddle.
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awww ;;
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anyway there's a reason dimitri was shyly trying to be knightly homoerotic at grant before he ever even dared to say the word "courtship"
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moving on
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Sylvain - despite how much he ragged on Sylvain when they were younger about being a terrible skirt chaser (their c support is dimitri scolding him about it, probably because his room was right next to his, sylvain he caN HEAR YOU FUCKING-)
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dimitri still initially introduces him to byleth as "capable person who values his friends", and honestly a part of his brain is never going to stop thinking of Sylvain as the Big Kid in their group who the rest of them would look towards
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and that definitely showed in when they first met up in Cherrygrove again, also the time period where dimitri was Positive they were all dead, and Sylvain immediately went to hold him when Dimitri started crying
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which Dimitri will never forget, ever, because he's that kind of person
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and having Sylvain be there for him like that, and talk with him, and talk about feasts... it's reassuring in its familiarity.
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so sylvain has definitely given him a sense of stability in some ways, although dimitri is hesitant to lean on him too hard
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but that's dimitri with everyone, so
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AND SPEAKING OF FAMILIARITY
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Felix - fun canon fact, but the Blaiddyds and Fraldariuses have been connected for basically a million years at this point, starting with the very first king who pulled Faerghus together, Loog
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and whose right hand was Kyphon
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and that's stayed true all the way up until dimitri's current day, which is why the duke family is known as the Shield of Faerghus
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NEEDLESS TO SAY, BLEEDING HEART AND LOCAL ROMANTIC DIMITRI ALEXANDRE BLAIDDYD REALLY LIKED THAT AS A CHILD
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I know the extremely gay place this is going
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anyway. anyway. the two families have a history of getting along on a personal level too, with both of their dads having been best friends, and then felix's older brother was dimitri's knight, and of course the two of them were best friends
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and dimitri adored felix, so the idea that he was so lucky to basically have it Decided By Fate that they'd be best friends? and that they'd stay best friends Forever because that was how it had always been?
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he could not be more over the moon
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and then everything went to shit
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twice
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:'D
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as a fun part of his PTSD package, dimitri has massive survivors guilt. so he blamed himself for the tragedy that killed a bunch of people, and then he Definitely blamed himself for losing it at Sreng
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i can't remember if i mentioned Sreng before, but basically someone decided that two teenagers, one Immensely Traumatized already from being the sole survivor of a massacre, should absolutely be sent out to put down a rebellion or whatever
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UNSURPRISINGLY, dimitri lost his shit and did Much Violence. enough violence that it kind of traumatized felix
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who essentially decided that his best friend had died in Sreng and that he hated whatever the heck That was
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(more complicated, but that was basically what he certainly tried to say)
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anyway, dimitri basically accepted that as Another Thing He Ruined and should be Blamed For
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even if felix occasionally confused the heck out of him ARE YOU STILL HIS FRIEND WHO WILL PLAYFULLY TALK WITH HIM ABOUT SWORDS OR NOT, FELIX, PLEASE LET HIM KNOW, HE HAS TO ADJUST THE SELF LOATHING APPROPRIATELY???
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anyway, so that was a thing for a year, and then five years later got kind of worse because dimitri got kind of worse, as happens when you are already in a massive breakdown and then are blamed for your uncle's death and are presumed dead while you think someone else you love died for you-
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dimitri "everything happens so much" blaiddyd
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ok sending out PTSD superstrength teenager to deal with a rebellion sounds like a Poor Decision on someone's part
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this is what happens when you don't have therapy in your medieval fantasy kingdom
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BOY HOWDY
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enough someones apparently thought "it's been like a year or two, right, he's probably gotten over it"
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tbh i could keep talking about faerghus and Crests and war culture BUT WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE TALKING ABOUT GAY BULLSHIT
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SO
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cut to VR!
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asldkjfja i mean it's certainly the lead up to gay bullshit
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but so Felix shows up, and Dimitri - again - still in "we're all dead" delusion mode
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he'd already been devastated at Sylvain and Claude being "dead", and, however much him and Felix had been clashing beforehand, well, he still loved felix Very Very Much and, like
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it's fine if he dies
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but despite all his bullshitting beforehand
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no one else should be allowed to die
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especially from a family that he's loved so much, in a multitude of ways
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except, fun fact, felix is from after dimitri has gotten his shit together in canon
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so he thought dimitri had just regressed and started talking about things that had already occurred to show his disapproval
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....one of which
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was the death of his father
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who had died defending dimitri, and was the event that kind of contributed to dimitri snapping out of it
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(that and byleth hunting him down to talk him through his despair following it)
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SPOILERS THERE but i've already spoiled more than enough here
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anyway. needless to say. VR Dimitri had not experienced any of that.
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he'd already been recovering slowly just because he'd been eating regularly and making attempts at sleep (thanks, kent the munna) and bathing and seeing sunlight
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and this was kind of like the jolt to shove him the rest of the way forward? (tied up when he went to go speak with Claude about All That)
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i've gone Slightly off the topic, but it's all in the name of explanation i swear
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Summary: Dimitri and Felix were inseparable as kids, then the Tragedy fucked everything for everyone, and Felix got horrified/disgusted/traumatized by Dimitri's PTSD-triggered wrathful murder spree and their relationship foundered for a couple years
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Then Dimitri entered a five-year fugue state, and they sort of made up in canon after he snapped out of it, only Dimitri is from before he snapped out of it and they made up and Felix is from after it
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Which led to its own awkwardness and confusion!
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because Felix is so important to him, but Dimitri felt like he had ruined So Much for him. He couldn't save Glenn, Felix's brother, or any of the other people, and then he became a monster and Felix was right to hate him for essentially taking away his friend....
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And that is all bad enough
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except then dimitri gets to hear that he's responsible for the death of felix's father too???
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i'm sorry for being slow but nepeta is cleaning herself on my arm and it is very distracting
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sorry, vriska
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cats
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:|b
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I was just summarizing so people could follow what the most important takeaways from all that were for where you're going with this
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(Because, as stated, I know where this is going)
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she's about as much of a pain in the ass as the real one
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ANYWAY. so dimitri is dealing with a lot. obviously. and he's fully prepared to keep shoveling self loathing onto that
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except then Felix looks him in the eye and tells him that he wasn't to blame for what happened to his father. Or to Glenn. and that Felix hasn't been doing "his job" of being by Dimitri's side.
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Felix told him that he'd gotten better, and that Dimitri's existence in itself isn't a failure to him.
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and this has meant a lot to Dimitri, who for a long time couldn't see anything like that ever happening, who couldn't see the end of the war happening without his own death
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Especially when Felix later apologized for some of the names he called him, and when he let Dimitri touch him again
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so, for Dimitri, what Felix brought to him was just... forgiveness. And through that forgiveness, dimitri could get back something he felt so fundamental to his life, Felix's presence, which he had thought he'd ruined forever
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(Felix also brought him a literal shield and promised to actually be his Shield, just like Dimitri's childhood romantic fantasies, so like)
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(And this is despite Felix hating knighthood and chivalry and tradition and all that crap)
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anyway that was a lot and now i am going to break before getting into claude
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okay after a million years of babbling about felix
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Claude - fun fact, dimitri and claude are put down as school rivals, and you see a little bit of that in some of the moments during the school segment before things Go Bad and you're reminded this is indeed a war game
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(you also see this)
https://64.media.tumblr.com/ffb81ae92ff23936444114c6f1717068/386dd2038eef5ea1-0a/s500x750/f55087ca01055c0a04d8025042f619153c54593e.jpg
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(this has nothing to do with anything but i felt the need to mention it)
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got briefly sidetracked by a discussion of dittos being egg yolks, anyway
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you see this a bit during the times when the house leaders actually interact with each other, and claude often teases dimtiri, or tries to rile him up if you have the two of them go against each other in the practice matches and whatnot
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and dimitri, like.... tends to respond not too badly to it. like, at worst, he tells claude to focus, they're in the middle of a battle!!!
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but during the school match against the three houses, he kind of responds favorably to claude trying to get under his skin, in that playful kind of "oh ho, i see what you're trying to do!!!" way
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and then, coming back around to VR
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okay so, like, outright, at the start, dimitri got annoyed at claude because claude's initial reaction to a man in an active delusional/hallucinating state was to lay out a whole court case on why he was wrong, and, uh, that is not how you are to deal with someone having delusions
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but despite that, when dimitri was able to recover at least a little bit thanks to basic life necessities and not having to worry about his life being in danger every other day/hour
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when he was absolutely uncertain on what he was actually experiencing, what was right or not, the person he turned to, the person he felt that could help pull it together and have things make sense
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was Claude
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because to Dimitri, Claude is one of the smartest people he knows
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oh, sure, when he was younger, he thought him occasionally frustrating, and rude, and dishonorable because please do not stomach poison his class, Claude
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Yeah, like, Claude tried to Logic Dimitri out of delusions, which...that isn't how delusions work and it's just gonna make the delusional person feel worse
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But also, Claude does not have anything remotely approaching a modern-day understanding of mental illness, so he was basically just doing the best he knew how to
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TO BE FAIR, CLAUDE WAS JUST SAYING THAT TO PSYCHE THEM OUT
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but Dimitri has never felt that Claude was... cruel. Or didn't care. He ddidn't entirely get why he decided to go with the things he did, but he also always felt positive that Claude was a Good Person using his brain for Good Causes
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Dimitri knows he's not a great tactician on his own. He knows he occasionally puts blinders on and razor focuses on something.
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And he also knows that Claude is the opposite - that he can see a much bigger picture than he can
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And that's something Dimitri really admires
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So for Dimitri, to choose something in particular above all the other amazing things he feels Claude brings into his life, that open viewpoint and the ability to think of things different is definitely somewhere up there
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and he thinks it lets him see even more amazing things in the world, and become a better person
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