[Writing][RL] Been trying to finish a story for three hours now and my brain just won't stop tearing it apart.

I'm... really starting to think I'm just not cut out for this anymore.

And it scares the shit out of me because I've wanted to be a writer since elementary school and it's starting to dawn on me that it's just never going to fucking happen.

If I can't get out of my own way to even do just a first draft, how the hell am I going to finish a book?

How am I going to survive the rejections that everyone gets?

And if I just concede those points and give up on it, what the hell am I going to do with my life? Just stay in this dead end job forever?

I hate this constant feeling of just never being good enough.

I feel this...

But idk I've told you I liked your writing before. Sometimes it helps to listen to others 'cuz 'you are your own worst critic'

if you've ever heard that phrasse

The problem right now is that I've been trying to do this for years now. And it hasn't gone anywhere.

And I probably need to just grow up and stop pretending that it's going to. Figure out a realistic plan.

hmm... Well I'm not really one to tell you how to grow up 'cuz I need to do that myself (but don't want to) so, not sure what to say

But just know I think you're a good author

I do appreciate that.