[real life] wow it's finally hit me how expensive graduate school is and how little my money is

previously my tuition was cut in half because I was an accelerated masters program (meaning I got grad courses at undergrad rates) but now that I don't have that bed

fuck.

literally I could get any job and I'd be considered okay but god damn I've been essentially brainwashed into thinking that I need to have a job in my field for my degree to carry legitimacy and that's fucking me up

honestly, thanks anxiety.

and how the school system is rn I HIGHLY DOUBT I can get a proper job in the teaching industry

.... field. god I've been taking care of my parents business for far too long

I would've been fine if my dad yknow. Paid Me but LMAOOOOOO

I can do commissions but GOD am I horribly slow at them (low energy/mental health/parents being stupid) ... I'm trying though!! I really am!! fuck

I applied at this local tax firm for their opening but GOD DO I HOPE I GET IT I've been checking my email and phone almost religiously

Especially because they told me I'd know by either today or tomorrow. I'm scared

Probably gonna crash into an anxiety attack if I don't calm down

anyways sorry for bothering y'all

Why do you think I’m working part time as a floater at a daycare? Ahaha

I mainly went back for my second undergrad degree because I couldn't afford to start paying my student loans for my aborted masters. >.<

Student loans are insane.

they really are because ahahaha

I am not working!! I can't trust my commissions bc theyre very far and few so im. im scared.

i mean i know biden's gone and froze student loan interest and payments but i'd rather have that noose off me asap