this morning I'm torn between wanting to put in for a few more days off (I took Friday bc we get Monday as a paid holiday), telling myself work isn't that bad right now and I can stand to wait a few weeks, and feeling 'why bother' since I might not do much on days off regardless. >.<

I know I've been burned out but ignoring that, boy it's hard to give a fuck about work right now with the state of things

idk kinda rational brain feels like I should take more time off now because I'm so exhausted with everything and clearly need whatever half-assed break I can manage

but then I think to myself "well work is fairly quiet and lately I've been getting paid to chill in a way, so I shouldn't waste PTO/vacation right now"

I originally didn't want to take more than a day off in January bc I took a week off last year for similar burn out reasons and ended up wishing I had those few days later in the year.... but that was also bc of pandemic which there was no planning for

/flails

bah. I'm sitting here like, why am I trying to justify taking time off when I can feel that I need a break. that's more than enough justification

no, I don't love the idea of using a chunk of my time off in the first month of the year, but it's not as if I'm going to magically de-stress if I wait until next month

and it'd be kind of nice if I could walk myself back from depression-ambivilance and isolating myself

okay. made the time off requests before I could talk myself out of it again

don't know if taking the rest of this week off will be approved but we'll see. it's not busy enough for 3 people, and everyone else had the holidays off, so crossing my fingers

I thought about only taking Tuesday off bc I'll probably be distracted by the news, but then realized I should take Wednesday too since there's no way I'm not watching the inauguration after everything

...fuck that was fast. requests already approved!

now I just have to remember to set up my out-of-office

the fact my mood is immediately better knowing I have a week off tells me this was the right decision lol

it's going to be weird being able to sleep and get up whenever I want for a week, lol

(not that I can't technically any day of the week, but I think we all know work (or any other commitment type things) merit certain hours usually)