kikibug13
kikibug13
maaan Xingchen will be so destroyed in the fallout of the event
kikibug13
and not in a way that will be fun for him
Leviathan
/catches You didn't put top-level up yet?
kikibug13
lmao no, just between the 'I just want him to be a friend' in the proposal and 'I want to be your lover' and even calling them to same thing
kikibug13
and the way the event will make him feel
kikibug13
he'll just want to disappear
Leviathan
Nooo...he loves him far too much
kikibug13
lmao and he said he was going to tell him the truth literally while... possibly lying to him
Leviathan
He'll tell him the truth he swear it.....just holding himself back
kikibug13
lmao he already said that he loves him as a friend so
uhhh
kikibug13
meanwhile Xingchen absolutely meant that he can't hate Zichen. he'll just. hate himself
kikibug13
not even the other him, the other him hasn't done the worst.
Leviathan
/holds Its so complicated but he doesn't love him any less
kikibug13
mm
Leviathan
Also Kiki, sleep!
kikibug13
it's Friday
Leviathan
Sleep...?
One Night Star
Twin is going to have so much overwhelming guilt after this
kikibug13
twin didn't do anything wrong, he's... after the event Xingchen will be extra nice to him, to everyone. (yes, Zichen too)
Leviathan
Yup how many times we rekt these boys
Leviathan
It's complicated it's like he's in love with both
kikibug13
but that's not what he said to Xingchen... almost on the same breath as 'I'm not going to lie to you'
kikibug13
hence... breaky Xingchen
Leviathan
Everyday...
kikibug13
he'll just go meditate out in the snow. it's fine
Leviathan
Just gonna meditate and pine for him. It's fine
kikibug13
just don't give him promises you're going to break. don't lie to him while telling him you'll only tell him the truth. he's barely holding himself together as it is
Leviathan
But how does he know though? Unless the twin talks to him?
kikibug13
I mean they are in a pretty public place but also yeah he currently doesn't know, and not what they are saying to each other
Leviathan
All right, so the only way he knows is Zichen tells him directly because he promise that if anything bad happens, he will tell him
Leviathan
And yes, he is ready to apologize and knowing how upset they're going to be, so that's why he ask them both, "Please don't hate me"
kikibug13
he told you he can't hate you
Leviathan
But he's only human and he could
kikibug13
no, just himself
Leviathan
The question is, do you want to play this out, because he will tell him or wait?
kikibug13
oh I'll wait for him to tell Xingchen, just. from 'I am worried for him as a friend' to this
Leviathan
All right then, I just need to finish up logs and when I have a clean slate in the inbox, they will have a heart to heart talk. Can we have that?
kikibug13
yy no rush, this was just an ahaha the fallout will be breaky, not an 'I'll do something impatient'
Leviathan
It's not your fault because time zones difference, logs takes a while to finish but I rather deal with the damage
kikibug13
yesh
Leviathan
Also the whole fandom can joke Wangji can have a whole harem of Wwx's...so in the heart of it, it's the same weight
kikibug13
see Xingchen wouldn't mind that as such, he basically said as much. it's the 'say one thing and do something else' that will hit him
kikibug13
not because he thinks either Zichen or Xingchen did anything wrong or bad, but but because he believes he doesn't deserve better
Leviathan
They have to be flexible in communicate in what to they want and we can work on that
kikibug13
Xingchen said what he wants... Zichen to not be hurting
One Night Star
Do you want the twin thread to be before or after the Zichen thread? Because it kind of changes how he will react to him
kikibug13
I'm down with either
Leviathan
Honestly I was hoping the inbox thread we have turn into smutty or fade to black because that's the direction I'm hoping for
One Night Star
Same. I started with believing it was before since I had the lobby prompt before the dining hall one snd that is how my brain flowed lol.
One Night Star
Probably be better that way so that Zichen is the one who breaks the news to him and not twin..
Leviathan
Honestly I thought Zichen didn't matter! When I joined the game I expected him to be a supportive friend because Xue/Xiao is a major pairing?
Leviathan
So I'm reading these tags and I'll be like, "Why do you guys like him? He is boring?!?!"
Leviathan
/fans self
kikibug13
... um
remember that xxc didn't turn suicidal until he found out he'd killed sl?
kikibug13
that's basically The person for xxc
kikibug13
like he was upset before that, but then? he didn't try to save himself at all. that was what made life not worth living
kikibug13
sooo yeah? song lan is pretty important?
kikibug13
but yeah it could still veer towards ftb, it's just a lot of emotions and 'that's an option' is still pretty new for Xingchen
Leviathan
Yes ftb works and if it's new, then that means we have to slow down?
kikibug13
remember this is the person who doesn't usually like being touched who just. compared to how long they have known each other, kissed him pretty recently. and while Zichen has had a lot of time to regret what he didn't do, even while he was controlled, Xingchen is still coming to terms with he didn't hate me in the first place and he doesn't hate me
kikibug13
for killing him
kikibug13
but instead he - loves me like that?
kikibug13
it's a big shift
Leviathan
He doesn't like people/strangers touching him or get close to him...but this one, Xingchen he doesn't mind
kikibug13
/nodnods
kikibug13
that much Xingchen is getting to understand deep inside, which is good
Leviathan
But when he said friends and lovers, I think he meant friends who love each other...but you can ICily ask him and question what he means
kikibug13
... but also for him sex is like. the last part of it
Leviathan
But also it's perfectly fine for Xxc to be upset and mad, and go sulk in the snow and not talking to him
kikibug13
he said that what he feels for the twin is very different from what he feels for this Xingchen, and that he worries about him as a friend

which is why his will be a bit of a blow
kikibug13
again, not who does done whom, but the mismatch between words and actions
Leviathan
The only way I can think of is have them talk in the ic inbox and work their issues out
kikibug13
that can help, though possibly after the envy/possessiveness thing wears out
Leviathan
/nods Will that work for you?
kikibug13
I'm good with anything, I'll roll with what actually happens and how it affects the boy
Leviathan
I can drop in a tag tommorrow or Sunday if you want this played out?
kikibug13
we can see where the thread goes and then tackle, especially when we have the aftermath maybe.
Leviathan
/nods Okay that should work
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