anyway at he really....... misses....... gabi he thinks about her a lot and has been spending a lot of his free time on hobbies and such that eventually lead back to her somehow
he’s been here for the greater span of a year (almost two, holy hell), and a lot!!! has happened during this time! he’s involved himself with a lot of people, definitely more physically than ever emotionally
he has quite a few fwb that have slowly been ebbing into some kind of feeling territory he does not fully acknowledge because sex is more of a refuge than a way to connect! at least he likes to think it that way since opening up and accepting that anyone would like him in an emotionally attached way baffles and scares him
but he’s been working on that recently, and names that I could name in helping that matter move forward now are soren, kaede, styx, hakuno and mikasa! who is hmmmmmmm
in that feeling zone for quite some time, it’s serious and more complicated than any of his other relationships because I’ve slowly been weighing actual love into the ship, but
2. gets cockblocked by something or other when he tries to remotely take a step up
3. he’s stunted