anxiety brain + upcoming surgery talk etc etc

unsure if nauseous because seasoned fries too spicy or if anxiety jitters are just making me nauseous

The state is going back into lockdown the day of my surgery

so idk how that's going to change things for my wife being able to stay at the hospital and shit

so I'm worried about that

oh geez, I have been worrying about that too. I didn't know you guys were going back into LOCKDOWN

I'm supposed to have all my shit for this project in already but I can't focus because I'm worried about everything (including the grade for the project I can't focus on)

and all of that on top of like how much I've been hurting all week and shit is nfjkdsbnjhkgsd

oh and I'm officially housebound for the foreseeable future

like I got my covid test Friday and after that I'm supposed to be isolating even from the rest of the household until post-op

but I don't really have a private space. My desk is in the kitchen and 75% of the time I sleep in the recliner in the living room

which will be 100% post-op