I'm having a bad brain day and was like is it pms so I checked

but I'm still two weeks away so, no it's not I'm just having a bad brain day

why brain

i love u

8(

ugh I am SO FUSSY

I am having so many "why am I not good enough to play with" feels even though I am also having many good threads which is ridiculous

ugh why this

but it's just like.... players that say they want to play with me but .... don't............. or like, seem excited to play oocly but it never pans out and it feels like pulling teeth wHICH IS OFTEN JUST LIKE..... characters/play styles don't mesh! which happens!

......but it's a sucky feel anyway

esp when you see them playing with other people so well/easily

and then it's like WHAT AM I DOING WRONGGGG

anyway I know it's a brain problem but I'm having ThesE Feels again anyway

that fussy awful sort of jealous feel of like "I want to play with you/that character" but you also know that it's not going to work out