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this happened on friday, i hoped it was kind of a fluke, and then it happened again today, so now i'm officially pissed
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so for context
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i have not been able to do a lot of the key things i used to be able to do for my job since WFH shit started. at first we thought it was just my internet being shitty, and now we're finding it might just have been my computer not having enough hard drive space, and if that's not it then it's just my work computer not being powerful enough
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so i've had to defer a lot of the heavy lifting to our PA. which is good, because the shit can still get done, and things can move forward. it just makes me feel bad because i feel like i have shit all to do and i'm being paid to sit on my ass all day and lol i have self-esteem issues about self-worth=what i can do for people
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on friday the PA got a big crew shout out from story bitch's team for doing all that stuff for everyone, which is cool because it's true that that has not been her usual role
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it rubbed me the wrong way, since i never get so much as a "thank you" for doing the same thing from this woman. and i vented a little to our other PA and she agreed that it was probably just because it's not a usual thing for that PA
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it rubbed me wrong enough that i had to get up and leave my desk, but after venting it was like yeah, ok, it's fine, i'm glad she got some recognition and gratitude
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today we have a check-in meeting with story bitch and her team. and i'm not sure how but the topic somehow rolled into talking about how much work they thrust at this PA and how they need to cut her some slack because it's so much and they're not the only team, blah blah blah
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and it really just struck me that when it was just me doing the exact same thing, they didn't even give it a thought. when it was just me, they didn't give a fuck.
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
oh wtf
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so i just straight up left the meeting
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
so a couple questions :
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
how long has the PA worked there? and is the pa white along with the story bitch?
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they've never once talked about this shit and now all of a sudden poor PA for having to do all of this, and i'm just. i know it's super petty, but it stung
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lollll PA has been with us since... i wanna say september? she used to be the dept secretary, she got promoted to PA in like, january
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
because I'm trying to figure out why they treat you like shit
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and yep, she and story bitch are white
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
so you've been there longer, right?
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i've been here for almost 2 years now, yep
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
then I'm suspectting it might be a race thing
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god. i didn't even think of that
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
expect the brown person to do the work that's dumped on them without even a thank you
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
but when the white person does the same amount of work, suddenly they're a hero
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
I'm not blaming the pa for this
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
I'm blaming story bitch
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hah. fuck. haha
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but yeah i'm not blaming PA either
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
ugh we need to get you outta there
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just. god. i hate this woman so much, lol
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talking to our prod manager about it now. she gets it cuz she's also filipina, haha
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
mmmm then that says it's not just me imagining things
𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑢𝑠𝑡
microagressions fucking suck
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we're pretty sure story bitch doesn't even know she's doing it, which is like, the worst part
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and even though she's the manager, neither of us are in positions to be able to talk to her about it directly
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god, i really am just realizing more and more everyday how unhappy i am at work
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i'm done with having to be the overall problem solver for this department and having to babysit everyone's shit
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if i ever get out of this position and into the one i want, i hope i never give my coordinator this much fucking trouble
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i can hear the death bells ringing (for my job)
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feels like they're finally figuring out that i'm useless and have been sitting on my ass this entire time
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which i guess makes sense, i'm about to hit the 2 year mark and i've never lasted in a job longer than that, so