all i’ve done today is sleep but what if...more sleep [some mh chatter]

i’ve been Super Extra Depresso and low energy this past week+ but i have an appointment with my psych on tuesday.....

sleep is a mood......... and the depresso;;

i feel like such a letdown

and more things but i already whine like all the time

if anything this past week highlights how poorly i function unmedicated because i weaned off my prescription which

i guess i’m gonna talk about things and whine anyways HAHA

but i wish............ i could function without medication. i really do. like i don’t even necessarily mean “oh i wish i wasn’t depressed/bipolar/ocd”

like i could deal with mild symptoms and occasional fatigue and the odd suicidal thought

but this.....complete lack of enjoyment and total exhaustion and malaise that consumes everything and makes me unable of doing basic things like hygiene and feeding myself, much less doing any hobbies......

on top of having a nasty temper and not sleeping at all and obsessing over irrational things.....

i just want to be able to Cope

i had a better handle on things when i was younger!!!

anyways i feel like a scumbag because i can’t make brain go without pills which is Probably Irrational but so it is

I know you wouldn’t judge someone else so harshly for needing pills, so try to extend that compassion to yourself.

I know that’s easier said than done