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[work] [covid] god fuck i'm so stressed i canNOT get any work done right now so i'm just gonna talk about what just happened
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wanna preface this by saying i am acutely aware of how lucky i am in the grand scheme of things, and how very...... very many people did not get as good of a deal as i am getting right now
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but my gratitude for how easy i got off is tempered by a whole LOT of anxiety about what's to come
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so like
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today
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we had a conference call with basically the entire boeing chapter of vtc, which as of now has dwindled to about 12 people plus managers and focals
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and the reason for that meeting was
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as of tomorrow, vtc's statement of work with boeing is ending
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ending, or being put on indefinite hold, or WHAT the fuck, i don't even know
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so like. we officially don't have work anymore because boeing can't afford to keep our company on payroll
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but here's the part where i get off easy
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there's some kind of special program our company qualifies for through the federal government, that allows them to take out a loan and they don't have to pay it back so long as they use it for payroll and benefits
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so for the next 8 weeks, we are all still on vtc payroll and getting wages and benefits
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which is bonkers
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i know a lot of people i wish were as lucky as i just got
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but anyways the idea here is apparently they expect boeing will be taking us back in at some point
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the tricky bit being we don't know when or how many people they'll be bringing in
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everything's up in the air right now
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the one blessed exception being our pay-- for now, anyway
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and i want to reiterate how nuts that is, it feels like cheating given how rough this whole thing has been for a good number of my friends
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but unaccountably, i am still an anxiety-drenched mess about this whole thing right now
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not knowing what's going to be coming after the end of those 8 weeks, or even necessarily what's going to be going down in the next few days to a degree
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i'm probably going to be losing contact with my coworkers, who knows if we're gonna be on the same team again or if the same team will even still exist in a couple months
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i have no idea what kind of work i'll be doing, and the possibility exists that this will all fall through and i'll still get laid off
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hell, i didn't mention it before, but technically our company is still applying for the loan i mentioned before-- they expect to be approved, but there's still a nagging bit of uncertainty there, you know, for flavor
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and i'm just a mental and emotional mess right now even though i have basically no right to be
Alterz
just because other people are going through shit doesn't mean it's unreasonable for you to be upset by the uncertainty and insecurity of this situation
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uncertainty about your job situation sucks, it's literally why everyone else is going through shit, why would it be unreasonable for you to be worried about potentially having that same shit
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anyway all i've got is hugs to offer but /hugs
Thyme_Traveler
what Alterz said. /hugs/
Charlie
yeppp
Charlie
/hugs