God, i saw pictures of so many coffins in italian hospitals on twitter... and people keep saying it's just a flu.
I often joked about zombie apocalypse and all, but never in my life i would ever imagined of living something quite similar.

I try to talk about other things to not bring my mood down since i'm already feeling shitty for other reasons (kinda stupid considering the situation we're in, i know, but when you're stuck at home intrusive thoughts become more aggressive), but everytime i open a social media i see these news.

And while it's important to keep yourself informed... i'm tired. And scared. It feels unreal, yet it is.

If i didn't had to stay in front of my pc for commissions and all i would probably stay forever in bed reading stuff.

Also, and this is super stupid and super annoying... but since we're all stuck at home, i can't even have a good cry to release the stress because i have no privacy in normal times, let alone now (and my home is SMALL).

Now i wanna shower just to cry inside it, water and loud music will cover everything else.

(Sorry for this rambling, should someone read it. I just need to vent but i don't have another "safe space" where to do it.)

DevinVaughn : Celi :

jessicalucie: it's seriously terrible, esp if you think there are still idiots out there going out refusing to follow the rules (and today it has been annunced that lookdown here in Italy has been extended because of this). I am already at my low for other reasons, and these news don't help at all...

Its okay to cry, even if you have to do it in a shower.

Fearyfox(Reyn) : can't wait to do it freely honestly, i hate the lack of privacy i have...

jessicalucie: that's true sadly, i wish it wasn't the case