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Separate plurk for me bitching about RP stuff and also feeling gross/sick.
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Still kinda sick, maared.
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Trying to work on a tag bomb for tonight, hoping to maybe clear all of Carden's and most of Ereuvir's.
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Kinda bummed out and uninspired at the moment.
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It gets to me, sometimes, how little I seem able to tag when I typically am much better at it and I want. to. tag.
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But I've just been in a fucking slump and I don't know why.
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Ereuvir's kind of been a problem child for me for a while now, but I'm not ready to let him go yet and I like my current threads with him.
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Carden's doing well and I'm super enthusiastic for where his arc is going.
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Game seems like it's kind of flagging a bit for me. I can't remember the last main event I felt like I was interested in doing the way it was presented. But I don't think that's the game, I think it's just me.
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I feel like I've kind of played out the setting a bit and a lot of the events haven't offered anything new I haven't already played.
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But I also feel like I'm just kind of... waiting around for someone else (mods included) to do something interesting so I can play? And I REALLY HATE THAT ATTITUDE.
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Like, it's a genuine pet peeve of mine in other people, like just make your own fucking fun and stop waiting for someone else, damn.
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And yet. Here I am.
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But there's also just kind of... not anything I'm interested in doing with my characters.
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(Like, separate from other people's characters, I mean)
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I just wish there was a magical way to tell whether a new character in the same setting would help or if I need to be playing something different somewhere else or what.
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There's a lot of different things I can try for all of this. I'm mostly just whining because I hate feeling like this, not because I can't see some things to do to get out of it.
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Also, I wish there was a magical way to know if playing someONE new was what I needed to revitalize myself, or if I needed to play someWHERE new, or if it's just me and I need a break.
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Because while I am starting to lean towards someONE new being a clear short-term solution, I'm not sure if it addresses any underlying issues or not... because I'm not sure if there ARE any?
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Regardless, I REALLY REALLY REALLY enjoy all of the people I play with and find you guys still fun as hell to play with, so please don't think this is any kind of dissatisfaction with that!
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I'm just kind of un-self-motivated and it's bothering me a bit.
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So, having kind of talked myself through this, I think what I'm going to do is:
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1) Put someone new on the TDM and see if I can get any self-momentum that way as well as tag out to some people there.
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2) Take a good hard look at Ereuvir during the event this month and what I want to do with him moving forward.
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3 ) Judge that combo-plate of feelings.
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4) Really make a genuine effort to tag out with Carden over the next event, as well as get some new things cooking with current CR.
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I decided I'd see about putting up Shido on the TDM, if anyone is interested in a slightly mopey vampire
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I hearya there with the game being a bit uninspiring. I'm not leaving. They'll have to catapult me out. But I'm just like, oh, this latest event, while it was kinda cool, just doesn't hit me the right way. I know, I'll catch up on old threads!
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Which... I end up not doing. So I feelya there, too.
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Yeah, same kinda thing here.