[RL] So I fly back to Oregon tomorrow..... I'm both excited to be home.... And dreading the move from Eugene to Portland. <possible ranting/musings about past issues inside>

so for those who don't know me or haven't known me long

I lived most of my life in Salem Oregon

now that changed back in about...2015 or so

I had a lot of stress and stuff cone down on me that made me lose my fafsa and as such I lost my appartment

I had been renting a two bedroom with my brother but was the only one paying bills. Keeping a roof over his head when he contributed basically nothing and wouldn't even get his ged....he was only a couole years younger than me and I was 24 or 25 at the time

well...I had friends who lived on Eugene who told me I could move in with them. So I did.

I lived with them...4 of us in a three bedroom two bath...three of us slept in the same room.

it seemed fine at first but tensions grew and I moved out with a different friend...then it was two of us moving in with this friend

suddenly we had three people in a one bedroom one bath

it was awful

cone about two years afo thongs came to a head to the point that I was basically lwft to find a olace on my own and was luterally homeless....I was lucky that my coworker had a friend renting out a room

I lost four or more friends and the roof over my head in one fell swoop and I didn't even know ot until it wad too late

at the same time our rp game came crashing down ina raging fire and I was blamed for a lot of it

that being daid I found a place and started to heal. I made new friends and some friendships grew even stronger than before

flash forward a bit and now I am moving....again.....no bad blood this time...just needing to grow and expand you know?

the point is I have moved around a lot and I'm nervous

I've moved 5 times in as many years...and I never feel like I'm going to be stable....I can only hope I'll find my Home.