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[Marvel] So. After all this time I've finally watched Endgame. I have feels. So many feels.
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(Yeah, I know... how did I miss it. I used to be on top of this so hard.)
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I need a small moment to vent before I get back to life.
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I mean, not complain; I mean, just cool off. You know. From all the feels.
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....all right, who the fuck but "Ave Maria" on in the background. WHAT WAS I THINKING. (I was thinking I'd get back to Hitman: Blood Money. Not...the best idea. But. I didn't have anything else I could think of.)
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It's supposed to be pretty but it's kinda just sad in all the context floating around right now.
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...I forget how easily distracted I am when I "think out loud" so to speak.
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(You should hear me rambling irl. It's just as bad if not worse. I kid not.)
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Let me preface with: THAT WAS FUCKING... GOOD. I mean, I really did enjoy it. Overall it was really good.
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Not so many complaints as just... personal observations and opinions based off my quirky personality. But honestly. A really good watch. And ending to a grand series of events.
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Marvel has officially killed off the last of my favorite characters.
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Don't get me wrong, I love them all to varying degrees. If any that are left are favorites it's Spider-Man (whose comics I grew up reading sporadically alongside Sonic the Hedgehog [bite me, I love those comics]) and Hawkeye who I fell for during the time of the movies let's face it. But. yeah.
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They tried to bring brought him back. Sort of.
(It wasn't the same. Not to me.)
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LOVED his role in Captain Marvel though. BEST part of that movie for me.
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They made Jasper into a bad guy and I am STILL BUTTHURT ABOUT THIS.
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Was happy to see him again in Endgame though!! :'D
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(There is a reason I am mad about Jasper Sitwell being a bad guy. HYDRA. Fuck no. You see, to me he wasn't some one-off side character in the movies. To me, he was the silly little guy in the comics that kept appearing over and over again to do his best as a SHIELD Agent. See, I read the old Iron Man comics before he showed up in the movies.)
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Then. They killed off Loki. And I expected an out in Endgame. I really did.
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And I.... they did a thing with him. And I loved every 5 seconds of it.
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I don't know what they have planned for that upcoming series version of Loki.... but I know it's not what I want. Probably. And who knows how long it'll be before I actually get to watch it. I don't think I'll be coughing up the money to Disney any time soon. They crazy. Also expensive. And vaguely evil.
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I played Loki on and off again for many years in the past. It's been hard to say goodbye to him. I still.... think about playing him again sporadically. I miss him. He was good fun. I'm just afraid of screwing up after so many years of playing him. Resetting can be hard sometimes, ya know? He had such CR in some places, development. It messes with things
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I... saw that movie at least 8 times in theaters when it came out.
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I apped him into a game literally that first night after it showed. (Yeah, you could get away with that shit back then. LOL.)
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I played him on and off again even more times than Loki. He's just so.... easy.
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And sometimes you can even get away with his science being dumbed down because he knows he's the only one that gets it in the room.
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(Which helps a dumb writer, is what I'm saying. I'm not smart. lol)
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Maybe it's time to say "goodnight" to the Marvel movies for me. I... for the past few years I've been loosing track more and more.
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It's less a lack of interest as.... me not keeping up with theaters anymore? I... don't go anymore.
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It saddens me, but I guess I should accept that I don't like going by myself anymore. And I have no friends. And that's sad.
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I probably won't loose complete interest in Marvel.
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It's kinda always been there, ya know? I did read Spider-Man when I was young. I grew up watching the Spidey cartoon (from the nineties. the good one. and.... the less good one? that I remember fondly anyway. the future one. it was cool looking. then again, I also really loved Sherlock 20...12? shit. whatever number it was. it was Sherlock in the future)
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I read Deadpool in college and loved every moment of it's dark, quirky self.
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I read the old Iron Man comics about that time, too. (A good friend got me all of them digitally to read. Ah, the good ol' days. when I had friends... and good interests)
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And then up until Antman and the Wasp I had seen every movie in the theaters. Then it went down hill after that.... mostly because I had fallen behind and couldn't bear to watch them out of order.
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I thought I'd catch up with Endgame, I managed to watch the last few leading up to that in time if just barely, but... I didn't make it to the theater on time to watch it. I even purchased tickets one night but got there too late to catch it from the beginning. And I mean.... I had such trouble getting there that I wasn't just missing the credits at that
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Always in the past. There's a complex for that, I'm sure. I'm sure I have it.
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Anyway. (I use that word a lot. I always have in typing. From the moment I got an LJ username.)
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(You know I meant to mention Black Widow. She's a top favorite too. Fuck. I fucked up. Figures.)
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So yeah. All my favorite Marvel characters are officially dead. And not coming back.
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At least, not as they are in the original flow of things.
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Now, if I can just resist this feeling of nostalgia long enough to step away from the computer so I don't go reread old rp threads.... that would be nice.
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Actually yeah. I loved Tony at that horror game. Maybe that's my favorite stint of his. Yeah. Yeah. He met the Master Chief. Definitely my favorite.
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Ah, man. "justabitoffun" was a great name.... and such good times. yeah.
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Loki was great, too. All that Norse mythology I loved to read came in real handy. HAH.
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Lookit all these DMC journals! Holy fuck. I played all the fucking characters from that series. I mean, almost all. cough
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EXITVOID. That was the name of that horror/survival game. Such a good game. Such a good time.
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The one character I've played more than Tony Stark? Dante from Devil May Cry. I've picked him back up so often... ah. good times.
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"donttakemystuff"! goddamn, i knew there was one journal in between that i couldn't remember the damn name of. that was the best run at ExitVoid. "suchajerk" was the follow-up after they switched phases of the game and I updated Tony while I was at it.
Hooded Figure
Sorry about all your favorite characters :<
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Me too. It was bound to happen though. All my favorites tend to die. XD
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...but yeah. I have a thing for dead characters it seems. :3
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Also. HI! I thought of all the TRON characters I played back in the day, too..... good times, good times.
Hooded Figure
Yeah, I know that feel. XD
Hooded Figure
Hi back!~ Definitely good times.
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....I know why I liked playing Tony. He's such an asshole.
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It's my true calling to simply be mean to someone to their face and not give a shit. Alas.... real life sucks.
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...It's disturbing how much I want to find this one thread I remember happening... or the planning thereof if it wasn't actually threaded out. Because. what it was (a character's death) but. I really want to find it.
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Basically, I read one of the threads just after it and now I really want the one where the thing happened. I swear Tony shot Chief in the face...... but it's not explicitly stated in the aftermath thread.......
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Um. He had his reasons, btw. Good ones. Chief... thanked him for it later, iirc
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Chief, Cortana, Jarvis.... it was a grand ol' time.
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Apparently this was a thing I did???? How...I had time... back in the day.... I guess..... man, do I wish when I had the time and effort to put things together.
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And this is how I spent the majority of my night.
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