[mh/bitching]

man i woke up like 4 times through my sleep which isn't super unusual for me but each time it was to escape super emotionally oriented nightmares that were stressing me out so bad i woke up with chest pain

4 emotion nightmares in a row!! what is with me. i feel like there's something weighing on me.. i've been a little depressed for the last week or two, but i don't know what's triggering it, or what the source of stress is... besides you know, general adult stuff. nothing out of the ordinary...

i mean the answer is i have MDD and sometimes it just doesnt give a fuck but that doesnt usually trigger nightmares like that for me..

seratonin machine broke...

i also feel weirdly lonely, even though i've been pretty social all week. maybe it really is a seratonin hangover lol. and irl friends always wanna drink, so that doesn't help when i come out of a social bender

i'm gonna take the next week off from irl except thursday im doing karaoke at a gay bar w my queer friends ghghb

er.. from socializing irl*