Jessie
[RL, health] Just tested positive for breast cancer. So that's a thing in my life now I guess
horny on main.
oh my god. honey, i'm sorry. 
Jessie
it's still very new and I'm still going through the rounds of scheduling discussions with 480000 procedures
DʀᴇᴀᴅWᴏʟғ
oh my god jess 
vex appeal
Jeez 
vex appeal
I hope they have good options for you.
—aly
oh, jessie. i'm so very sorry. +1 to saro, above, in hoping those discussions with 480000 procedures results in some good, viable options.
𝐳𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤
so sorry to hear it, wishing you all the strength for everything to come 
ＳＫＥＬＥＲＥＮ
Oh friend. I’m so sorry!
ᴇʟɪsᴀsᴜᴇ 💉
oh fuck... echoing the crowd, i hope they're able to give you some treatment options, i'm so sorry
ღмσмεяvα
crossing fingers for those treatment options coming through, please take care ;;
crossing fingers for those treatment options coming through, please take care ;;
☼ ᴠɪʟ
If you need anything internet voices can provide, my door is open for you!! Wishing you well with everything next
Chi
oh no, I'm so sorry. best wishes and I hope they give you some good options quickly.
Lire
I’m so sorry. May your procedures be simple and successful.
.uǝǝʇ
Oh no, I’m so sorry! I hope they have good options for you, if you need anything at all let me know!
fireghetti
i just want to say that i love you very much and add my voice to the choir saying i hope you get good options and speedy access to those options. you know how to reach me if you want to talk about this, or about not this, or just scream into the void at someone.
e(Liz)a
Sweets I'm sorry. Echoing Tori's offer to scream about this or anything but this. I love you. <3
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
shit that sucks. I had cancer a little over ten years ago so if you want to talk hit me up
𝐭𝐬𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐭
oh shit jessie. if you need anything let me know
ғᴏʟᴋ ʙᴀʀᴅ
oh no if you need anything or any kind of distraction you know where to find me.
if you need anything or any kind of distraction you know where to find me.
Jessie
thanks everyone ;-;
Jessie
so I have a surgical consultation at the end of next week, and an MRI the following monday
Jessie
IT WAS WEIRD THOUGH watching people transition from "lmao you are too young to be here little girl come back when you're 40" to speaking to me in grave, calm voices telling me not to be scared
Jessie
by the time they sat me down with a patient relations officer I was just like "so is it super cancer or something wtf why all this"
Jessie
on the way out they were like "I expect to still see you walking around in 30 years!" and I was just like "um yeah because you're going to do your jobs right??? was that in question?"
Jessie
just cut my boob open and take the bad part out 
Jessie
my boobs are huge I could lose a little and still be fine
e(Liz)a
❤️❤️❤️❤️
Transient Anus
I'm so sorry.
oshi oh no
holy shit hon, i am so sorry but i am here for you if you need me
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
yeah it is scary af when they get Serious
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
my test results came back when I was on a long visit home and I got a phone call with the doctor herself going like "[Saga] you don't understand. We can't wait five days for your flight. You need to come back right now and start treatment." FUN. TIMES.
damn Free!dom
I’m here love. This has been a thing in my family as long as I can remember. Early is the best thing in this disease though! We’re here for you!
I’m here love. This has been a thing in my family as long as I can remember. Early is the best thing in this disease though! We’re here for you!
court 🐸
sorry to hear this news that's a lot to process and i really hope that they caught it early and have good options for you. since you ARE so young here's hoping it's very actionable
court 🐸
wishing you the best jessie
inadequate tits
god that sounds awful and frustrating. they'd better get their shit together and do it right! 
im so sorry you got saddled with cancer wtf
im so sorry you got saddled with cancer wtf
dragillionaire
oh, Jessie... shit honey. I'm sorry.
dragillionaire
they probably just didnt want you to feel like you were being talked down to after you got a diagnosis but just x_x that's got to be scary having them change up like that.
morethan084
“I’m sorry” makes it sound like a death sentence so I’m just gonna give you an internet hug rn
“I’m sorry” makes it sound like a death sentence so I’m just gonna give you an internet hug rn
batsquatch
I'm sorry
𝔖𝔫𝔦𝔥𝔲𝔯ó𝔫𝔨𝔞
/hugs/
🎄Misteltein
I love you and I am here for anything I can do for you 
ɴᴇᴄʀᴏғᴀɴᴄʏ 💀💜
Oh my god, Jessie... I’m so sorry
ɴᴇᴄʀᴏғᴀɴᴄʏ 💀💜
If you need anything, even just an ear, I am happy to provide. I don’t even know what more to say but I love you and am thinking of you
strahddy
holy shit, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how terrible it must be to get that news 
I'll be thinking of you
I'll be thinking of you
Masa
that's scary, but I'm confident you're going to kick its ass.
Gore
holy crap. hoping for the best
gσσ∂ συт нєяє
wishing you the best for a quick and easy treatment schedule it's not easy hearing news like this but you've got this. you're a star and we're all here for you
it's not easy hearing news like this but you've got this. you're a star and we're all here for you
cat lady
i am so, so sorry, dude. sending some positive vibes your way. please let us know if there is anything that we can do for you, i'm sure we're all happy to help.
kelemvorite.
I'm so sorry, that must be terrifying, but we are all here to support you however we can, we love you
Restless Heart
That's terrible news best wishes for your health and recovery.
best wishes for your health and recovery.
MRS SEPHIROTH
wishing you all the best :c cancer can be scary
spider-woman.
i'm thinking of you so much and sending so much love and support your way. please know i am always just a p-plurk away and i love you very dearly. 
Jessie
OKAY SO UPDATE because it'll be weird making new plurks every time I get a little bit of news
Jessie
officially stage 2 cancer. The lump is 2.3 cm in diameter and considered "on the borderline" of what they would find concerning
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
that's encouraging!
Jessie
I met with a surgeon today to talk about taking the lump out, and she agrees that this is the first time having uneven boobs might work to my advantage, because they could probably rearrange what's happening in the big boob and come out with something even
Jessie
but she still wants me to meet with a plastic surgeon so someone can come in and make it look decent because it would be in a weird place to have an indentation on my chest
Jessie
from what I've gathered, it'll look like somene took a bite out of the top of my cleavage otherwise 
Jessie
they're still waiting on test results to make sure that they don't want to jump straight into recommending a mastectomy
Jessie
and apparently on wednesday they're going to present my symptoms to a board of like 30 guys and have a conversation about the best treatment plan (I'm told there will probably be shouting)
ＴＨＯＴ ＣＲＩＭＥＳ
holy crap. 
crossing my fingers for you, man
crossing my fingers for you, man
vex appeal
I feel it is right and appropriate that there be shouting.
vex appeal
Thank you for the update :<
𝐳𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤
jfc what is this the summer diagnostics festival
𝐳𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤
but that sounds very promising, glad to hear and ty for the update ♥
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
are they thinking chemo and/or radiation afterward or are they thinking they can get it all with the lumpectomy?
Jessie
LOL apparently it's something their cancer center does for all new patients -- they have a running meeting set aside for wednesdays for people to be like "THIS WALKED INTO MY OFFICE WHAT DO Y'ALL THINK"
Jejune Thots
you got this!!! 💖💖💖
𝐳𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤
omg. I MEAN HONESTLY THAT'S ACTUALLY KIND OF AWESOME to get so much feedback but also omg.
𝐳𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤
i hope the smartest shouter wins the boob contest
Jessie
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
: that's one of the things they're waiting on test results to talk to me about more. It's around a milk duct so they're thinking they might hit it with an estrogen blocker, but they're waiting to see if it matches a (insert something complicated that I don't fully understand) profile
Jessie
SOMETHING SOMETHING the aftercare involves like 10 years worth of meds and might induce menopause and it was part of this long "WE HAVE OPTIONS TO FREEZE YOUR EGGS" talk that I kind of checked out of and was like "that's nice I'm sure many people would appreciate this talk"
ᴇʟɪsᴀsᴜᴇ 💉
oh thank god im glad you’re under the border of concerning!!!! and for the shouty meeting lmao
Jessie
thank you friends T_T
Jessie
they let me look at my cancer via ultrasound and it's black and ugly and I hate it
inadequate tits
you'll get it out
you'll get it out
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
yeah it's a really fucking weird feeling
e(Liz)a
It'll all be gone in no time at all <3 I'm glad it seems like there's every reason to be optimistic!
dragillionaire
oh man. I'm glad that ... it's still an early phase and it sounds like treatment plans are good
dragillionaire
go do your shouty meeting, guys, and don't come back till you have the best plan. we have to kill some cancer!!!
ɴᴇᴄʀᴏғᴀɴᴄʏ 💀💜
I’m so glad it sounds like there’s good treatment options!
Jessie
/CRACKS THIS OPEN AGAIN WHILE I'M DOLING OUT UPDATES
Jessie
okay so I have spent a whole lot of time sitting in a lot of really cool expensive-looking machines
Jessie
I GOT TO HAVE A BONE SCAN it was kind of dope
Jessie
kind of terrified about what the bills are going to look like when they start happening but that's a problem for future jessica
Jessie
so an MRI found a smaller piece of ??? so they had to do an MRI-guided biopsy WHICH IS THE WORST FUCKING THING i found out
Jessie
like an mri by itself? Cool, hang out in this little box for a while, it's all good
Jessie
an mri BIOPSY is like "hang out in the box while your boob is being smashed a la plancha (how do you talk about a plancha in english? I've never encountered a plancha in an english-speaking envirobment)
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
I think you just call it a plancha
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
We just stole that word lol
Jessie
OH then that's helpful
Jessie
and then the doctor is like "oh OK that's what the spot? COOL THERE" and shoves a needle in your squished-boob and then BACK IN THE BOX so they can make sure it's in the right spot
Jessie
and then NEEDLE BODY HORROR ALL THE WAY INTO YOUR BOOB
Jessie
and then back in the box to make sure they did it right
Jessie
I'M TOLD I HANDLED IT VERY WELL but it was mostly because if I didn't stay still they'd just make me do it anyway so what's the point in pitching a fuss??
Jessie
but apparently fusses are pitched on the regular
Jessie
so right now there's a hole in my boob that's been glued shut and THAT'S a new pain
Jessie
I was complaining about the aftercare instructions (showering was a challenge D: )
Jessie
and my mom was like "practice for your surgery!!!" and I was like "...........that's not helping mom"
Jessie
bone scan results found no extra cancer but some early-stage arthritis? SO I GOT THAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO I GUESS 8D
Jessie
one of them was in a knee that's been bothering me since I was like 22. I've had doctors tell me for Y E A R S that there was nothing wrong with it
vex appeal
I'll be happy with no bone cancer. Arthritis sucks but you can live with that. :<
Jessie
so I guess that's a way to feel validated? And retroactively furious
Jessie
and some weird stuff in my jaw that I'm HOPING is just weird dental stuff IDK I'm going to ask about it more
Jessie
also some weird stuff in the area that sounds like where I was hurt when I was rear-ended? even though doctors told me there was no thing wrong with my Xrays following THAT too
Jessie
so. I'm annoyed with like every doctor who's ever been like "nope you're fine enjoy my bill later"
Jessie
I have a consultation with my breast surgeon again on Monday that seems like it'll be pretty final, and then I'm meeting a plastic surgeon to have a conversation about what size/shape my boobs are going to have after they're finished cutting things out
Jessie
and then I think that's the last thing that happens before we schedule surgery?
Jessie
I FORGET IF I MENTIONED IT so I might be repeating myself but they've pretty much decided to treat it with hormones and radiation after surgery, so I won't have to go through chemo
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
oh interesting! I didn't realize that was an option now
Jessie
yeah apparently there's a....... wait I need to find an article about it I don't understand it well enough to sumarize
Jessie
Breast Cancer HER2 Status | HER2 Positive Breast Can...
Jessie
it has to do with that thing?
ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫 ℙ𝕚𝕫𝕫𝕒𝕫𝕫
I know they identified a link between hormones and breast cancer a while ago, I didn't know they had used that info to develop a treatment
Jessie
like if I tested the wrong way for that thing, they would've had to do chemo, but they got the result they liked so they can just.... something something estrogen blockers
Jessie
I don't understand all the science it took to get there, but the bottom line is the important bit >>
Jessie
might cause early menopause and I'M SURE THAT WILL BE A DELIGHT
Jessie
but still not chemo?
inadequate tits
woof. I hear medical bills are a nightmare for cancer especially, I hope your insurance ppl arent more ass about it than usual
inadequate tits
and hopefully they get you sorted without chemo that would be nice!
Jessie
I'm kind of like "ughhh my facial hair situation is ALREADY an issue s i g h" but maybe there's a way to segue into getting insurance to cover a percentage of lasik?
Jessie
no wait not that
Jessie
the hair one
Jessie
lasik is also a wishlist item but not applicable in this situation
inadequate tits
something something hair removal magic
Jessie
I know you're kidding but over the course of my life I have accumulated like 4 different creams with that in the name
Jessie
I used to buy ALL THE THINGS
Jessie
surprise none of them work
venice bitch
guess we're not only hair twins but also facial hair twins 
Jessie
oh have we never discussed that?
Jessie
IT'S HARD TO TALK ABOUT but yeah there are a few of us open about The Struggle
venice bitch
YEP i got man hairs on my chin and upper lip, it's great
Jessie
oh I can grow a pretty legit beard if I let it go
Jessie
it's definitely a visible sign to let people know whether or not I've left the house within the last three days
venice bitch
sad same
venice bitch
my mother cursed me and my sister with it lmao
inadequate tits
I'm resigned to perpetually having lil brown hairs all over my neck and a mustache of some sort
venice bitch
i never knew how real this struggle was for others
Jessie
it's really common, but we're socialized to never talk about it
Jessie
because GIRLS DON'T GROW BEARDS and it's an assault on our femininity
Jessie
and like. I'm sure we all went through the 8th grade
Jessie
people say shit
venice bitch
then let's all talk about how satisfying it is to dig out ingrown hairs and change things
Jessie
I MEAN EW.
Jessie
but yeah that's a thing
venice bitch
curly hair is a curse, okay
Jessie
/solidarity fist
ღмσмεяvα
it really is...
inadequate tits
lmaoooo
morethan084
I’m glad chemo is not the plate for you ❤️
e(Liz)a
mm ingrown hairs.
e(Liz)a
check in on your curly-haired friends we're not okay in this heat