Okay. Here's the short of it: I'm bad at it, I can't consistently keep it up, and when I try to, I'll get burnt out and depressed, and basically not do it for a long while, effectively damning me to constantly never get up to where I want to be.
I don't have an attractive personality. I'm not over the top, witty, I stutter way too much. I don't really provide anything of value that no other stream also provides while being more entertaining.
Streaming was fun for a while when I thought that "oh. I'm just building up slowly" and then Obnoxious McChuckfuck brags about how his stream is basically so fucking awesome and hes actually made money off of it and hes not even trying.
I am so friggin tired of trying to compete in this stupid rat race to be the first to respond to something and everything, no matter how humiliating it feels and no matter how you don't want to do it. Do you want to fade into obscurity? What's that? You missed a day? You already have faded!
There's no such thing as "too late". Everyone's timing is different from the next. Just because your older than some streamers don't mean you're too late.
I don't HAVE an audience, because I don't HAVE a single game that's I'm willing to continuously play enough to the point of burning the eyes from my sockets just to get some consistent followers who will drop me as soon as I decide I don't want to play that game anymore
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: It is when you're have to juggle 1) A full time job, 2) Art as a hobby, 3) Trying to practice competitive games, 4) Take the videos you've streamed in order to make content on youtube to advertise yourself, 5) Family responsibilities, 6) Responsibility to friends wanting to go out, and finally 7) Sleeping enough that you don't want to die.
I don't dislike it necessarily. It's just really hard to bring myself to do it. Once it's going, it's okay, but I'm getting tired of working up that mental mask to appear appealing and look like I have an inkling of an idea of what I'm doing
You're a variety streamer. There's nothing wrong with that. I've been in your streams and find them enjoyable and entertaining. The biggest issue for me is just timing. I work evenings and 9/10 Friday evenings :/
/nodnod. I'm obv not gonna force you to keep streaming, but a few pieces of advice: before deciding to quit entirely make sure you're in a good mental place to do so. Decisions shouldn't be made if you're anxious or depressed unless it's an unavoidable thing. Second: take a break see how you feel after that.
Third and final: if you're having trouble getting viewers try changing up your schedule. Instead of Friday night try Sunday night, or a week night. Friday nights a lot of ppl like to go out (or have to work...heh) so it might be harder then to get ppl to tune in.
Okay. Here's the short of it: I'm bad at it, I can't consistently keep it up, and when I try to, I'll get burnt out and depressed, and basically not do it for a long while, effectively damning me to constantly never get up to where I want to be.
I can't consistently keep it up and my efforts to try to keep it up are painful in the long run.
I'm from a generation that can't maintain an audience because we didn't grow up with it. It was the exact perfect placement of bad luck.
...It's probably too late for me, really... It was a stupid venture to try and think I could actually make something and provide value to someone...
And I'm lucky if one of those people decides to talk.