[anxiety] does anyone else have a tendency to assume the worst is going to happen?

because this whole debit card situation is tying me in knots and most of it is because of that

it could still show up, today or maybe tomorrow or even Friday, I don't know

but I'm assuming it won't

(part of the problem is that I don't know exactly when it's showing up, since I don't know exactly when it went out, because the bank doesn't know)

and it could be in the mailbox right now, but my roommate, who is the only one with access to it, just hasn't gotten the mail since it came

but after I leave for work tomorrow, I'm not coming back until Sunday, so if it hasn't arrived then, I have to wait until Tuesday to call the bank (because holiday, of course), so I'll then have no way of getting a card before the end of the month

and I'd be fucked

sorry for the spam, but this is taking over my life right now

It's called catastrophizing and yup. It's a frequent anxiety symptom.

yeah

I just feel like this is so easy to catastrophize, since everything these days seems to be difficult in one way or another, and this has so many bad effects if it goes wrong

Yeah. The social and political climate right now does not help anyone's mental health.

there's that, too

I've been filtering my social media heavily

but I was more referring to stuff in my life, where one thing leads to another to another and nothing happens quickly or easily

so it's easy for me to assume that of course I'm going to have to call the bank and freak out at them, since that's the way it is

and to illustrate how things have been, I just got a phone call from my cardiologist on my work phone, since they mistyped my cellphone, so when they were calling it, they got no answer

and now I have to figure out if I go to the gym or go to the pharmacy

and I'm crying at my desk at work

because everything is so damn stressful

I'm probably going to the pharmacy, because I've been feeling lousy anyway

Yeah, I understand. Little things really add up, and I wind up feeling like a bad human because other people seem to be able to juggle this stuff fine (because my brain tells me my mental health struggles are invalid and I'm just lazy/incompetent). It's a Big Mood.

oh yeah

well, I got my debit card today and activated it, so that's a load off my back

Good!