[RP/grumbling/mute if you wanna, just getting my thoughts in order]

I hate how there has to be a small fiber of me that has to suspect people of not really having fun with my tags.

Not only is it irrational, but it's probably the thought that I've struggled with most in this hobby.

I struggled with it when I was fumbling through a few years back and I'm still putzing around with that thought now. At least it's easier to deal with now that I've finally drilled 'make your own niche' into my brain for once, but it's one of those piss-poor balls of 'gleck' and 'incomprehensible rargh' that's continued to hound me.

I want to toss my muses out there and not feel like I'm the only one that's having fun with it, brain. What's so hard about that?

(For the record, I'm at least hopeful that people are enjoying what I have to throw at them, but recurrent thoughts like this are more a 'me' problem and not a 'you' problem, so I apologize if it seems like it's aimed in that direction...)

...IDK. I feel like I'm not making a whole lot of sense this afternoon.

/flounders in the key of Spinda

I mean I don't really worry what others think and selfishly have my own fun anyway, figuring that if they're tagging they're interested too

This is a big mood, I'm sorry you have to endure it. :<

/rolls up sleeves and pulls out the tweezers to stick into your ear and pull that fiber out

Infychu It's fine. Honestly? I think part of the problem has to do with me being a habitual recluse -- my mind just strays, and strays, and strays, and reining it back in sometimes becomes one of those exercises in terrible futility that I don't have the spoons to put up with more than half the time, so it ends up feeding into this dumb cycle of:

"I NEED TO DO SOMETHING!" "Do I need to do something?" "I NEED TO DO SOMETHING!" "Do I need to do something?"

I try not to let it get to me too much, now that I'm aware of the whole 'decision fatigue' thing...

But it's... problematic.

I absolutely feel this v_c

*v_v

For what it's worth I'm always eager for our threads.

Likewise. XD

That's good to hear. It's an oasis in the fuckery that's my garbage fire brain.