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[Trans... stuff...] being on ur period dysphoria is the fucking worst
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Just tmw you see all these fucking people successfully transitioning and you remember "oh right I've known i was trans for nearly ten years now and all I've been able to do is get a SINGLE BINDER which is too small now so fml"
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Every goddamn help article like "haha asshole, get better insurance. Drive 200 miles to get a trans friendly doctor"
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Diy hrt is only available to mtf, asshole, suffer forever
nɑnɑmin
:< it is the worst.
lotus 龙 wife
it is the worst...
Wolfgirl Winter
oh ooooof
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Then you get CERTAIN TRANS PEOPLE yelling about how "if you aren't living as your preferred gender yet, is it really misgendering" and your rational human brain is like "i know you are wrong" but hormonal monkey brain goes "U RITE THO LIKE, WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE"
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Always gets so bad on my period but like fuck I've got car insurance to pay i can't be running to get hrt not because i don't want to do it, i want it more than anything but i live in Wisconsin
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Doctors here would not hesitate to toss me out on my ass
H I M B O
oh...this is a mood right now....
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I'm an adult with bills and shit i don't have time or money to be doctor shopping in the rural midwest
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Until i find one that's not only not transphobic, but also not scared to try hrt
♥ 不死的黑蛇 ♥
god i'm so sorry
one of my best friends is also trans and formerly from WI, so i've heard a bit from them about how fucking awful it is
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I'm just hormonal and tired and i want to live my garbage life gdit
♥ 不死的黑蛇 ♥
if you can make it to chicago ever, Howard Brown is amazing, but... i know that's still a big trip
Wolfgirl Winter
I feel you about the misgendering thing because uh
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Wisconsin is tooooo... conservative
Wolfgirl Winter
I just now discovered i'm trans, like nb leaning strongly feminine or nb transwoman or something
腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅
wait why cant you self med?
Wolfgirl Winter
but like I obvs haven't transitioned in appearance or anything at all, it's been 3 weeks maybe since I was able to really tell for sure this is a thing
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♥ 不死的黑蛇 ♥ : i will keep him in mind at least, but it would be something idk if i could do often enough
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Wolfgirl Winter that's always hard, just the starting out
Wolfgirl Winter
so intellectually I know I must be, but it's still like- identity wise it's complicated and I don't feel feminine at all
Wolfgirl Winter
yeah, I don't have much physical dysphoria at all which is a plus, but also why it took so long for me!
♥ 不死的黑蛇 ♥
Howard Brown is a whole organization, actually! here's their website, for reference
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腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅 testosterone is a Controlled Substance
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And can lead to liver failure if not administered properly but i don't even have a doc to test blood for me
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♥ 不死的黑蛇 ♥ : ill have to try looking into it. At least Chicago is like. Not as far as SOME places. Maybe after a couple of raises i can afford it
Wolfgirl Winter
but like, not having your material reality line up with what you want you know, it's frustrating, and maybe it's a dysphoria I have been experiencing subconsciously for a long time
♥ 不死的黑蛇 ♥
it could be worth it, depending on where you're at financially-- I don't want to make it seem like it's ~so easy or anything
♥ 不死的黑蛇 ♥
but fwiw, my trans friends (including my transmasc friend) were able to get hrt prescriptions like... immediately from them. they're very big on believing trans people when they say they're, you know. actually fucking trans.
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Yeah, that's legit. Really there are a lot of ways to be trans and I am 100% for anyone experiencing it however they feel comfortable!!! It's just that sometimes(esp on your period) the negative voices get real loud
Wolfgirl Winter
anyway yeah, it really sucks how much harder it is in so many ways for transmasc guys :[
腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅
oh right I forgot that people often aren't big on buying drugs illegally,
Wolfgirl Winter
i'll stop clogging up your plurk with my story though!
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腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅 i actually tried to look up where i could but all i found was "you probably should just get it for real cuz its almost less expensive and much less likely to fuck you up"
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So I'm just. Disheartened ig
腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅
yeah that's the case in general with buying shit from online pharmacies
腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅
in general, self medication is what you do when you're absolutely out of options, including 'wait longer'
腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅
have you looked into birth control at least to help with dysphoria
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(haha, midwest, giving out hormonal birth control)
ahih rei-yah;
yeah obviously your best bets are going to be Madison or Milwaukee
ahih rei-yah;
which doesn't help much when rural
ahih rei-yah;
I might be able to hit my sister up to see if any of her contacts have resources for elsewhere in the state tho (she used to be super involved in lgbtq+ orgs in south-central wisconsin)
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腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅 i specifically asked for birth control that wouldn't make matters worse but i think they gave me estrogen based bc and i was like "Cool no thanks" bcuz like. I'm 5'3" and have H size breasts and i may die if i get estrogen and it makes them grow any more
腐化💖之心🌊🐋🌅
if having things mailed to you is an option Prescription Drugs & Home Testing Delivered to Y... offers cheap progestin birth control which tends to prevent periods or at least irregularize them
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ahih rei-yah; : at the last Madison is only an hour away(milwaukee is two so that's... rougher), and I do want too try looking into Madison resources when i am at my job long enough for insurance at least
🌸 𝕝aila𝕗ell
I can't weigh in on anything else, but I take the progesterone-only pill for birth control and one of the things I like about it is that I don't get periods while I'm on it, so that's an option? If you say you get migraines they should offer you it, because the combined pill isn't suitable for migraine sufferers.
🌸 𝕝aila𝕗ell
You don't have to worry about weeks off with the mini pill either, you just take it constantly, and it's got a more forgiving time window with missed doses - 12 hours not 3.
ahih rei-yah;
I'm pretty sure UW Health specifically has a Gender Services dept or program or something because I know I saw stuff for it, so fingers crossed for your insurance!!
🌸 𝕝aila𝕗ell
IDK, I genuinely get on quite well with it? I know BC is a dice roll, though, so I guess I'm fortunate that I've found something that works for me.
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I know my old roommate had like. A bc implant but i don't think that'd work for me haha
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And my memory is so bad... so bad....
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