I have realised that I've built my whole current identity on my depression that hit when I was 14 and I dunno if I know who I am if I take into account the rest of my life.

Like there are 14 years before the depression that are just ?????????????

So like

who am I really we just don't know.

I mean......... same tbh

And I feel like I need to figure this out but I can't figure it out without talking to someone who can ask me the right questions.

AKA a therapist or something.

yes. therapist. good idea.

So frankly I would like for them to call me about that referral already.

unoiled snake :

My mum was like you have an exciting time ahead of you then! Also a sucky time but mostly exciting.

And I was like

I HOPE SO

self discovery can be fun! I've enjoyed sort of reinventing/rediscovering myself after my serious depression

not that my depression has really fully gone away it still hits me from time to time real hard (as most have seen) but I've grown a lot too

Yeah I'm tentatively excited and also impatient.

I'm overall in a better state of mind and happier than I have ever been but recently I've gotten this very intense feeling that there's some part of me that's unavailable to me.

Perhaps not really unavailable, it's probably available to you to discover you just gotta figure it out first. It's perhaps Unknown? to use a more positive sounding thing I guess? which makes it more of a mystery to solve and not something unattainable

you're mapping out your personality! some parts are still just covered in that mysterious fog that always covers unexplored territory in video games

Hahaha video games. I like it.

yes!

...mood

What a time to be alive.

Wow. This plurk.
It makes me wonder now too.

It sure is something.