[異界哲學]人生態度有兩個極端，一係消費者心理，你付出係為了開心(有各種層次，可以係好神聖的，也可以很物理的)，所以付不起的或者懷疑受騙，就要逃跑，而且不要打算付M記價錢有米級的享受(你只會好失望)；一係投資心理，即係你不會理你自己受苦受難唔開心，你期待的係回報(未必去你自己身上)，你會很科學地計算手段的效率，會關心策略和回報的問題，你會很理智地去做未必合符主流判斷的事情。所謂的愛，就係你消費自己的過程就已經好開心，而你的「消費」都係投資在你所「愛」的對象，而投資的回報好可能不是你自己收到的。所以「愛」之所以那麼難以捉摸的原因係它把一對向相反方向無限伸延的vector綁成了一個能量波動的圈。<-你夠了

最近遇到好多逆向算的人。【我明明付出了这么多，为什么你（们）不给我想要的】那种。头都大了。

φING : no wonder you are melancholic. If you suspect someone is giving you something not out of love, always make a clear deal and sort out the conditions carefully to avoid dispute.

I did rejected someone like that a while ago. The recent one is not targeting me but her (ex)boyfriend and she was crying and complaining etc. I was annoyed but i needed to act friendly and loving.

I don't know about her case, but there are people who are taught that you "get" a boyfriend by giving him things he like. But you know how films for which directors tried hard to give the audience things the mass is known to like are usually bad films.

i think she was giving what she wants to give (yeah even worse)

she was probably taught that she's the best and everyone 'should' love her

Well, seems like you need to check up her beliefs and taught assumptions before you can really help her.

but i dont wanna help. too busy to care about others

Learning about different sets of beliefs might actually solve your complaint of "hard to come up with original ideas".

i think my problem is that i set the standard too high for my assignments. if i can come up with a nice original idea i am way beyond a master student's level and the effort for prep would be way beyond couse requirement.

倒是真的讓我反思了一些自己之前做過的事

φING : Sleep well and get up to set more reasonable goal please. zero :

sincerely hope somehow the discussion would help.