ᴅɪʀᴛ.
[mute / family]
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
silently downs gin and tonic while my mother and father argue about The Gays
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
I'm so Tired
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
I want to call out of work tomorrow already I never feel like I actually get a weekend whenever I come here
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
ugh
Tᴀᴛᴇʀs.
Stares into the void
ᴅʀᴇᴀᴅ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴇss
/holds close
ᴍᴇʀʟɪɴ.
oh no ;;
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
yes mom I know I'm fat I'll work on it leave me alone
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
bitching about my weight all weekend. Also mad if I don't want to eat. Also mad when I eat??? what am I supposed to do!!!
ᴅʀᴇᴀᴅ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴇss
what the fuck
ᴅʀᴇᴀᴅ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴇss
no, Lena
ᴅʀᴇᴀᴅ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴇss
Lena, you're not fat. and even if you were, who the fuck cares???
ᴅʀᴇᴀᴅ ɢᴏᴅᴅᴇss
you're healthy - fuck her, fuck anyone who is talking about your weight
ᴅᴀᴢᴀɪ
what the fuck i've seen you you're definitely not fat
tinybro
y i k e s
tinybro
Tᴀᴛᴇʀs.
Sigh your parents...
Tᴀᴛᴇʀs.
/squeeze
hellpet
Oh, darling heart. You are such a good.
overlord
parents...
parents...
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
thanks guys I'm okay I'm just Tired. and it's so fucking annoying and infuriating listening to them arguing all day
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
I don't even have the energy to argue back anymore lmao. at least no one tried to grill me for my opinion on the gay agenda this time 
Tᴀᴛᴇʀs.
the agenda is to be done with their bullshit :/
deathless song
ahhh tiresome family visits are so wearing on the soul im sorry
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
talking about the queen movie and my dad bitching about how it's inaccurate and this is how the libs teach young people history these days?????
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
it's a movie... about a rock band... and it's not a documentary? also what
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
not even touching on the fact that Freddie Mercury was probably bi
dead dog bones
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
but bi people don't exist and also the gay agenda is teaching children the history of rock stars incorrectly
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
my soul is tired
i think
wtf
dead dog bones
ugh babe....... i'm sorry. come home soon
i think
you're not fat???
i think
also ughhh i'm sorry that they're like this 
i think
i know how it is and how it's just... exhausting....
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
EXHAUSTING 
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
dead dog bones
: I'm trying 
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
I want to go home drink a bottle of wine and watch ghosts
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
I definitely want to lose a few lbs, stress and shitty work have gotten me super off track, but telling me over and over how much weight I've gained is extremely Not Productive, especially when I already said the first time that I'm aware and I plan to work on it
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
I hate this culture of shaming and insulting to get results. it's super common and constant and it's so unhealthy!!! but if I point it out my mom gets upset and says it's because she cares (which I believe and this is the culture she grew up in but it's still annoying and uncomfortable af)
Tᴀᴛᴇʀs.
She still doesn't need to perpetuate that hurtful bullshit. :c
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
I genuinely don't think she understands which is super freaking frustrating, sigh
Adarglad
hugs you tight
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
thanks for listening everyone ;;
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
thankfully I'm finally headed home, where I intend to contribute to the gay agenda by writing more gay porn immediately
hellpet
Yes, good.
yeetaflare
four eels
yeah contribute
tentamoff
i wonder how she'd feel if you repeated the things she tells you back to her, first thing in the morning when she's least prepared
tentamoff
i'd try to lead it into a talk about how it doesn't feel good, and it's hurting more than helping
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
i've tried. it's a cultural thing, she doesn't care. it's honestly better than it used to be, it's just frustrating
tentamoff
mom pls
tentamoff
does she at least not like, go for the pinch wherever she thinks you're fat
tentamoff
bc that would drive me up the wall
ᴅɪʀᴛ.
oh no, thank god