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https://images.plurk.com/3WgLkWIsC5yGfUnSkBk2FQ.jpg Steadily growing convinced I have ADHD.
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I literally could not tell you what happened last week, and hearing people remember where they were on a Monday night two months ago baffles the shit out of me.
ALEX NO
y e p.
ALEX NO
Did you call to see someone to get some neuropsych testing? it's how they do it.
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/refers to the checklist
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not now
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No, I haven't yet. I will.
witch people
I understand this feeling, I understand it really, really well.
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I hyperfocus on things like IDK researching Katrina's lifestyle and do not want to do anything else for weeks.
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and then there are days where I'm like.
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nah
ALEX NO
remember last week when i spent seven hours coming through my youtube history to find the band I couldn't remember?
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...I do that too.
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And I get really upset when I can't find what I'm looking for.
ALEX NO
y e p.
ALEX NO
Literally seven hours doing not a god damn thing else.
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I have a few things I want to do like warp my loom, take a shower, do my laundry
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instead I'm just sitting here not doing anything
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i should actually do at least one of those things though
don't let it in
joins everyone in the corner of understanding
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I am very bored.
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I do not want to do anything.
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I tried warping my loom and I'm doing laundry but
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fuck
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Literally have been reading about ??? Dutch wedding customs in New Amsterdam and Colonial VA weddings
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I'm kind of trash today
don't let it in
I feel you, friend. My brain stalled out and now I'm just a lump.
Haru
This is all far too true
Haru
But they missed

-I can do eighty things at one
-Good god, I can't even do one thing without staring into the middle distance and zoning.
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that second one is me today
Haru
Also
-Screw people, they always think I'm dumb because I don't think like them and they think I'm weird too
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yeah that's also today
Haru
I can't tell you how many times people have looked down on me for not remembering something they thought was simple to remember.
Corpse Sniffer
god i feel thyat too and its also thought i might have undiagnosed add
Corpse Sniffer
memory is stupid
Haru
Memory is super stupid, but this is a chemical production issue.
Haru
OH! Also the lovely
-I'm dumb. Everyone thinks I'm dumb
-Fuck them, I'm brilliant!
Corpse Sniffer
doesnt help when anxiety is also there to be like 'you will forget everything and then die'
Corpse Sniffer
oh yeah
Haru
Generally followed by poor life choices
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what even is memory
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I can't remember what I was doing five seconds ago if I turned around to do something else
Haru
I've got the anxiety/Bipolar (It's not called that anymore)/ADHD trifecta. They feed off one another
Corpse Sniffer
oh man
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So ADHD also causes feelings of loneliness?
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because I get that when I'm unstimulated.
Corpse Sniffer
i just sit and fester
Haru
It can.
Corpse Sniffer
i mean i can see that yeah
Haru
Though I would say that it's probably interacting with another disorder
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I have Social Anxiety Disorder so
Haru
A lot of them tend to go together in weird ways
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yeah I guess
Haru
That would probably do it
Corpse Sniffer
oh yeah
ALEX NO
I get that too. The unstimulated loneliness
Haru
Same
Haru
Then I'll want to do something but I can't because the lack of stimulus killed my motivation and it's too much effort so I just go to sleep
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yesssssssss
Haru
If everything I'm saying resonates, go get tested ASAP
Haru
I am like, the poster child for ADHD
Haru
And adult ADHD manifests differently than childhood ADHD. Like, you've probably had it all your life if you have it, but as you get older things get more prominent for some.
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what are your feelings on the computer test
ALEX NO
The like online one or the neuropsychological one?
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neuropsychological I think?
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like the test my psychiatrist gave me maybe 4 years ago
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idk, it was Not Now
ALEX NO
Honestly it was the thing that convinced me the most that I had it. You’re alone in the room and supposed to click a space bar like every time there’s a thing.
ALEX NO
I fucked missed 75% of them because I was just like “this is boring as fuck.”
Corpse Sniffer
i think thats the one my therapist recommended because asking my parents wasn't gonna help
ALEX NO
I will say the np testing sounds overwhelming leading up to it? But it was no where near as bad as I anticipated
Haru
Oh geeze, I have no idea what any of these tests are (I was diagnosed in the early 80's, they tested differently then)
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I scored too high to be diagnosed, I was really focused on it :/
Haru
Yet another thing ADHD people do
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